July 21, 2004

God something has got

God something has got to change. I have spent the last 3 days sleeping. I wake up at around 10 or 11 to take my pills and shower as always. I have been waking up real stiff and swollen. I have gone right back to bed because I don't have the energy, the drive  the motivation to do anything but sleep. The heat has been my worst enemy at this point in time. I sent my youngest daughter to stay wiith her dad because I just can't function. I am in a brain fog that doesn't allow me to think at all.

Tomorrow I go to the doctor. I'm not expecting anything to change on this visit. I think he will try another antidepressant and maybe put me on another blood pressure pill. My endocrine doctor retired a year ago this past May so I have been passed around (3 Dr.'s)  this other practice because there is no other specialist in town taking new patients. I was told there was not another one in Eugene at all. I asked for a referral to Oregon Health and Science University and was told that he would refer me to a Dr. Curillo here in town. The appointment took 3 months to get so I have one more month left before I can be seen. I'm just hoping that he can help me because my quality of life sucks. I have no life. I want to be happy again. I want to be in love again. I am so sick of my life being centered around my Addisons and hypothyroidism (Schmits syndrome) I could scream. I'm off to bed. Hopefully I will be able to get out of bed so I can go to the Dr. It's a 46 mile round trip for me and the heat is going to kill me. It's supposed to be in the high 80s low 90s. Wish me luck.

On the up side Friday I got a call from KZEL the radio station in Eugene telling me that I won the Grand prize. It was a $100.00 gift certificate to Harry Ritchies (Jewelry Store). I was in such a fog when they told me it was hard for me to be enthusiastic about it. At any rate tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I will feel better.

Posted by Angie Noah on July 21, 2004 12:35 AM