June 29, 2004
I am settled in a
I am settled in a small hotel with a set rent. Today the rain has set in. Early morning rain over Europe. I am trying to get a job in a new city.
It started to rain with a thunder clap at about three this morning. A Charming wake up call that came from the grand reception of the heavens where no doubt famous writers dwell to record for Our Maker the events of this world. Posting to the Divine Maker of Man the news of people that are alone in hotel rooms, and your lives too.
I have a chance to say a few things now as well today: I am trying to find a way to MOTIVATE myself with what I spoke of in the last post!! Yes to slow down on the cigarettes...and here is the trick to healthy living: I will smoke no more than ten between posts..so I record my health and keep down my risk of cancer as well.
Posted by ersol on June 29, 2004 07:22 AM
Love reading your posts and I'm dying to know. Were you able to stick to your ten cigarette limit between the posts? I know how hard it is to quit!
Posted by: Anonymous at June 24, 2004 09:42 AM
Love reading your posts and I'm dying to know. Were you able to stick to your ten cigarette limit between the posts? I know how hard it is to quit!
Posted by: Anonymous at June 24, 2004 09:43 AM
It never works, forcing yourself to think of those worse off than yourself, e.g. "others in Africa". You just make yourself feel guilty without helping them. Help others if you can (if you have energy or cash to spare). But don't guilt-trip yourself.
Posted by: Anonymous at June 29, 2004 10:14 AM
Hi again,Maybe your dream was triggered by your move to Europe. You seem to be very intelligent and well read. You know the scourge the Nazi's unleashed during WWII. Perhaps that and your feeling of being alone and vulnerable brought upon the dream. Then again, did you have pizza too late at night??! j/kWondering what prompted your move from Seattle to Europe? Or was that a move back? Hope you have good therapists and docs there. going to read more.....Hugs, Judy
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TITLE: 2 weeks
AUTHOR: Ersol
DATE: 6/22/2004 10:55:07 PM
Posted by: Judy in AZ at August 14, 2004 01:00 PM
Wow, what a comment on Europeans.Is it true, what we hear here, that the French hate us? Well you are in Switzerland (geneva is swiss, yes?), are there so many French there that the Neutral state of Switzerland has become cold of spirit?There are studies here that women smile more easily, frequently, than men, our minds and faces are wired that way. Don't know if you are walking past all men or if the women there are ice-queens. Know you are a man...maybe you should try the 'new trend' experiment and on your next walkabout make eye contact with those you pass and say hello or whatever that is in French, I can't think....and I took 4 years of Latin....would do me good in pre-Vesuvius Pompeii, huh?! LOLIf you smile and greet, perhaps you'll receive a percentage of the same from the people you pass. If you are in a shop, next to someone, or in line, try it too. Here in USA, we'd do that, right? Except for days we're in a blue funk and don't want to speak to anyone. Could all of Geneva have been in a funk when you went for your walk?? (Doubt it!)Just some thoughts,off to read more..Smiles and Hellos, Judy
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TITLE: A Dating Service:
AUTHOR: Ersol
DATE: 6/25/2004 02:30:49 AM
Posted by: Judy in AZ at August 14, 2004 01:10 PM
Writing about this is clearly a way to NOT be afraid of admitting what I live.Hi again,You are so right that this diary is a courageous place to tell the truth of what's inside.Asking people in the real world is understandably harder. And being in a new place, a very diffent place, you haven't established sources of love, care, and attention. Are you working there? Making friends? More importantly do you have a therapist there? Do you have friends and family back here that you can reach out to by phone, email, whatever???? You deserve love and care and attention. But where to look??? Any of the above helpful?Hugs and Caring,Judy
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TITLE: A change
AUTHOR: Ersol
DATE: 6/27/2004 03:52:12 PM
Posted by: Judy in AZ at August 14, 2004 01:18 PM
Well it's good to see you're making friends..with the waiters anyway!! Again, don't rush to quit smoking or sugar when you are vulnerable. Of course, cutting back is good, sound's like you've been able to do that. But don't get down on yourself about it. At least the sugar cravings get you out and about.We can only save one life at a time and the one you are working on is yours. Yes there are greater ills in the world, and right now you must leave those to others and take care of yourself and not judge yourself in comparison.Gentle hugs, Judy
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TITLE: The past and the present
AUTHOR: Ersol
DATE: 6/28/2004 06:37:40 PM
Posted by: Judy in AZ at August 14, 2004 01:22 PM
DATE: 6/30/2004 01:43:25 PM
Thank you for your care and comment.
Posted by: Ersol at December 31, 2004 02:45 AM
DATE: 8/14/2004 01:12:50 PM
hi again,Aha, the missing ingredient on the streets is Alcohol!!Plus I'm 1/2 irish and of course you'd be gettin' smiles and greetin's in one of our pubs. Have yourself a grand time with a bit o' Irish comfort!Irish blessings, glad you found some smiles,Judy
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TITLE: People do not smile in Geneva!
AUTHOR: Ersol
DATE: 6/26/2004 07:22:38 PM
Posted by: Judy in AZ at December 31, 2004 02:45 AM
DATE: 8/14/2004 01:02:50 PM
Hi,Bravo for taking the first step and reaching out.Hope to hear good news.Hugs, Judy
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TITLE: Mixed up morning
AUTHOR: Ersol
DATE: 6/24/2004 02:51:20 AM
Posted by: Judy in AZ at December 31, 2004 02:45 AM