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July 16, 2004

I wonder can you cry

I wonder can you cry when you are on medication? Could one not stop it for a few days to laugh too?

No.

One just sits about reading and watching others.

Here: Depakin is what I take. 500 mg two times a day. Each day there is the google news site (news.google.com) and the bbc.com site that I spend time on.

(Feeling better than yesterday)

Posted by ersol at 8:20 PM | Comments (2)

July 5, 2004

News and Peace

At 34 the life-long use of medication is on my mind. I drink water each day. About 2 liters more than most people and started about 8 years ago this mix of water and pills.

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Now that I have my own place I am missing peace. Peace might be good sleep for now. It is the middle of the night. Already the routine sounds of a European city are those of little motor bikes that deliver food in the evening and papers in the early morning. Of cleaning trucks that get started at 4:00 in the morning and russian escort girls going home in little groups as the sun rises over the town. I wonder how much the man on the motor bike makes. Is it about the same rate as the escort girl before she came to Geneva? Does it matter what people make -when they are just sounds in the street?

Posted by ersol at 7:02 PM | Comments (0)

July 3, 2004

Home

For some reason I have decided NOT to agree to a message from the nice cute message which a 40 year old women wrote on my new dating box. She seems quite interested in going for a walk next Sunday afternoon with an American new in this town. Yet I would rather walk alone. What is my problem: all I can say now is: "...Sorry, no". The mood does swing in me as I type this out alone. ALONE, and lonely. Not able to admit to myself that the person I am turning down is me.

Posted by ersol at 10:40 AM | Comments (1)