Cute bear!

Hello friend,Replying to your August posts so far:I know that when I am depressed it's easy for me to blame it on my weight, I have about 30lbs to lose, REALLY. I know that I am overweight (hate the F word), I should diet, (except dieting brings rebound weight), and that this has to stop...my Not choosing to walk on the treadmill in the next room, my Not choosing to go out, my choosing to 'med and bed', take something for the pain, and take a nap covering my head and ....hugging a stuffed baby leopard my step-daughter gave my husband this summer from our trip to the zoo (she's 17). The real baby leopards were on display in an inside glassed-in area for the first day on the day we visited. One yellow-y, the boy, Osiris, and one whiter, a girl, Siris. Chrystal got Siris and gave Frank, Osiris. He seems to think it's cute that I now sleep with the baby leopard...don't think he knows it's such a comfort to me, at age 41, a stuffed animal.You're right, it's really about being alone, and we aren't always physically alone when we feel alone. I think everyone here who is using this forum to release honest vulernable conditions thoughts and feelings, do feel alone inside to a some degree most of the time, because we have secrets about how we feel, about our fears, about our depression and how we deal with it or don't. I love and trust my husband and share a lot with him, but not my innermost fears or 'downs' as he's got enough on his plate and I am trying 'not to give into the blues', so by not talking about them, they aren't there. Yeah right!! When I have a breakdown, he learns more about how serious my depression and anxiety are. Otherwise, those thoughts and feelings are secrets only shared (maybe) with my counselor and here (again, maybe). So alone inside, I'm off to nap, yup with the stuffed-critter, and my husband, and I'll hide from being alone for a couple of hours...hoping I'll wake feeling somehow 'better'.Hey did you not get your dog??????????So waiting to hear about that.......Hope you aren't overwhelmed by my many posts as I followed your posts........I do care.Hugs and blessings, JudySo, hell, go out and get the bear!!!!!!!!!! Or something.
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TITLE: Bear
AUTHOR: Ersol
DATE: 8/8/2004 06:11:33 AM