January 20, 2005
Counting
How many stairs are there on a "normal" set? How many ceiling tiles are there in the dentists? How many buns can you make from 5-12oz's of dough? a 12lb piece? How much bread do you get from 60kg of flour? Have you ever wondered at these things? I KNOW how many. I Know how many/much/costs/numbers/divisions/trees/cups. I hate it. I also know that the more I delve into reading (s) about depression, bi-polar, OCD and other "funny things in my head" the more of these "funny things" I have. I never thought that I might be Hypocondriac.. I actually don't think I am. I just need to know stuff. All kinds of stuff. Uninteresting stuff, trivial stuff, important stuff. It drives me insane. I NEED to know why I need to know stuff. So I search, I look on the internet.. I used to use the library, but this is much easier, and who needs encyclopedias any more? Where can you even get any? I need to know right now.. RIGHT now. The internet is a drug, an information filled, stressed out, seething pill of information.
Things I have figured I might or actually DO have: ( I see the doctor tomorrow and am going to discuss this with him, along with the need to see someone to talk to about this crap)
Starting with body things, then brain things
I know I have high blood pressure.
I know I have high cholesterol.
I think/know I have Bi-polar disorder.
I know I am depressed.
I know I suffer from SAD
I think I suffer from OCD. "suffer from, a whole new episode?"
I will save this and finish editing later ... my best GF is online and I want to talk to her
Posted by hellonwhls on January 20, 2005 01:46 PM
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