April 23, 2005
In the Hospital
I know today is Saturday but I am not sure at all of the date. I came here on the 21st, so I guess that makes today the 23rd. I have been having a hard time with the times of things in here. I wake up early and am told to go back to bed. Give me a break, I am an adult. I woke up in a fairly good mood thinking I had slept 'til at least 7 but it was just after six. I once again begged the nurses to let me downstairs so I can smoke. "No, you have to stay on the floor until 8" she says with her patronizing voice and smile. "Can I smoke in the smoke room?" Off we go to the door, where she points out once again, "No, not until 7!" I am now losing it. I am extremely foul. I understand the process, I understand even why they are changing things, what I don't understand is this: if they can trust me to be downstairs at 8, why can't they at 6?? What am I possibly going to do in this time difference?
So I watch the clock, now 6:32 and I wonder if I have made the right choice by coming here at all. I have been pissed off last night, now pissed off again upon waking. This just sends me into a freaking tailspin. Perhaps I should be at home.
There are many things to question here- speaking down to someone should not be allowed.
-I may be mentally ill right now but treat me with some semblance of dignity.
-I am not a fool, my IQ is higher than average, STOP speaking to me this way!
Posted by hellonwhls on April 23, 2005 07:10 AM