April 20, 2005
Things I consider
Today is already strange. I have been considering a lot of stuff this morning since dropping off both boys.. (yessss!, no fighting!) lol.
I finally got in to see the doctor yesterday, I have been working at this for weeks, calling every psych place in the phone book, no money means no therapy for me. No referral means no psychiatrist for me. So he sees as soon as he walks in the room that I am a mess. I tell him what has been up, the dreams, the day-vision/dreams. I joke a bit and ask him to put me in psych for a while...he agrees, which SHOCKED me. He fills out the paperwork and calls the front girls to get me a bed for a couple of days. This freaks me out. I come home after stopping at annie's and start getting my bag ready..out in the living room, check the phone, there is a call from the doc's office, there are no beds. WTF? I mean seriously....WTF!!!!!!!!??? So, finally feeling some repreave in sight for this stress and messed up head, I am back to freaking square one.
There is a Crisis Nurse at the hosp at all times, if I want to go and see her I can. In the meantime, wth am I supposed to do? I dunno.
Sit at home and suffer and wait and pretend nothing is wrong, like I have been doing for too long already?
Posted by hellonwhls on April 20, 2005 10:20 AM
hey my name is haley. ive been to one of those hospitals. i hated it. i didnt eat and i couldnt sleep and it didnt help me at all. maybe we can talk to each other and help one another. im only 17 so i dont know if ill be much help to you. i have nightmares to. you might think that im a perv or whatever but im being very serious. i would really like to talk sometime.
Posted by: little one at May 6, 2005 09:33 AM