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September 19, 2005

Working poor

I am wondering just how many working poor there are in North America. People like myself who work and work and never manage to have much of anything. Much of anything? How about basically nothing. I think I will do some research into this to see. I am going to have to take another job... which seems particularly unfair to the family. I can surely manage to work more than 40 hours a week but not being home for Billy can't be good. I know that I spend too much on this shitty smoking habit, which I need to quit for more reasons than just financial. I am so sick of NOT having any money at all. Not being able to buy anything extra. Basic living expenses are horrific in these times.

Rent:800 (more than a full paycheck every month)
Food:400 (rarely this much as we are living on/eating all the things which are not good for you but rather inexpensive)
Heat:100
Car fuel:120 (115.9/L right now) (there are 3.78L per gallon)*the price charts on the station signs don't even have a 3 or 4 number slot* (thats $4.38/G!!)
Car insurance:50
Meds *if I can afford them* 300/month
TOTAL thus far:1770

I make approx $1500/m working

The government sends me a cheque once a month for approx 200 dollars. This is what we used to call "family allowance" and is now known as CCTC (canada child tax credit) so the total is now 1700/m and with the 200 dollars I receive for Billy, now I make 1900/m, which sounds awesome and amazing. I know there a lots of people who live on a lot less than me. And somehow manage. Somehow manage? HOW!? I can barely do this. I am exhausted from trying to make ends meet. I am mentally wrecked each month from trying to play "catch up" with bills and bill collectors. I have no phone, can't afford the added expense. I haven't bought clothes in eons. Billy bought his own school clothes this year, from monies I gave him for his visit with his dad. Pathetic.
I am pathetic

Posted by hellonwhls at 06:02 AM | Comments (4)

September 12, 2005

The better to know you with, my sweet

Well, its been ages since I was here, I just got the internet back at the house, so now I shall try once again to keep this updated accordingly! I am moved in to the new place...sort of, I have gone through so much stuff and tossed so much out I am feeling out of sorts.

I am missing some of my stuff... not only is it actually physically missing, I am longing for it, too. I have weaned myself off all my meds except Effexor 150/day and after feeling like crap am actually not bad right now... I am seriously questioning all the crap I have been on and why can't I manage without it? Other than the serious lack of sleep, which sure takes its toll on me. The main reason for weaning/withdrawl has been lack of money for the meds. I went to have them filled for the month, and without any insurance help, $290.00 a month, a MONTH! I was appalled by this, but then again, one of my other addictions, smokes, costs around the same,,,, one to die and one to be better? or do they work at all? or is it just a frame of mind in the end? I see the doc on the 22nd, he is having all the med info transferred from Alberta, all the psych stuff, too. The better to know you with, my sweetie! lol hahahaaha

Pissed off with the docs, for sure.
Anyhow.... life for the moment is pretty much ok...(usual financial crap which I will go into more later on).
There is always a big bad wolf somewhere, isn't there?

Posted by hellonwhls at 06:28 AM | Comments (0)