January 20, 2005
Our Son's 1st (19th) Birthday.....
Hello friends,
Well Garrett who came to us in September at age 18 is celebrating his 1st birthday with us on the 20th. I'm tempted to put one candle on the cake!!! But he'll be 19. He's a little excited yet wondering what a birthday will be like with a loving family. Frank and I are taking him to dinner, hopefully with G's girlfriend &/or Frank's mom, Thurs eve between school & night school. Then on Saturday we are having a party for him and all the family are invited ('cept Frank's dad, never included, tho Frank does talk to him occasionally), and G's best friend and girlfriend and a couple more friends are invited. I hope they come. I have a feeling one uncle and his s.o. and their 2 kids may skip it. I really want G to feel the family celebrating him on his bday!!
And do I have a card yet? Nope. Gifts? Yup, but need to be wrapped. Cake? Ordering one tomorrow. Balloons? Yup, picking them up tomorrow. Was gonna decorate with streamers, but.... maybe for the party Sat.
I have been soo tied up and worn down helping my mother prepare for her meeting with her atty re her divorce settlement conference coming up with my father(ick) next week. She's been having such a hard time, and I've run to her side several days since the New Year. Today we finished up a property summary & proposed settlement for her to take to her atty on Friday. I have also gritted my teeth, locked my jaw while working on this stuff, as I grow weary and things take longer I just lock my jaw and plow through. My jaw is what has me up now at 5am. Waiting for meds to kick in.
The time before the holidays went really well, the holidays went really well, and since then I'm sooooooo beat all the time. I guess I was motivated by making G's 1st Christmas special and Mom's too without jerk(dad). Now I have to run out while G's in school tomorrow and get him a card and order the cake.
And I haven't looked at bills yet this month and I lost the repair estimate on the truck for the 12/17 accident.....
I'm so scattered. Some fibrofog each day I can deal with, but losing the estimate and now G's bday being here and me being unprepared........I just don't feel myself. Tonight at about 9pm I started feeling a tightening sensation crawling up my arms to my shoulders and chest and felt the beginnings of a panic attack. I don't know why...I wasn't panicked...but I almost lost it.
Nope haven't scheduled the counselor in since the new year and probably should. I hope it's stress over Mom's challenges and not the beginning of unexcusable flares of symptoms, which sometimes pop up.
Well, I should try to get some rest, my jaw's relaxed a bit.
Harried, but here,
Hugs and blessings, Judy
Posted by on January 20, 2005 3:52 AM
Hi Judy, Glad to see that the holiday season wasn't to hard on you.
I hope that G's bithday is or was all that you hope for and that the family celebrate with him.
Things are going well for me but I cannot get onto my diary, hence the lapse in entries. I am trying to fix that problem though.
I have been keeping well. I have to see a respiratory specialist in two weeks to check my lungs as there is some activity there. I also had my first night sweat in almost a year last night. They can be a sign of relapse. I hope not.
I pray that your pannick attacks are not returning I know how debilitating they can be from experience. Bad enough on their own without any other health issues thrown in.
All the best and know that I am thinking of you
Hugs Kylie in Australia
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