March 08, 2005
Social phobias / agoraphobia running High
I've thought about what I learned in counseling yesterday and I've thought about what it is that increases my anxiety, depression, etc to this level where I basically 'function'.
Social phobia's I think are high on the list. I don't want to talk on the phone. I don't want to leave the house. I don't want to have anyone come over.
I barely talk with my Mom or Daughter on the phone. I only leave for medical appts and those have been longstanding places and I feel the sessions are healing and nurturing so I can do the drive to & from & the appt. My brother in law came by the other night and I just waved hello from being scrunched up on the couch under a blanket just praying he wouldn't come in the room. (He didn't...they know I have FMS and understand I have limitations, but I don't think they have much knowlege on that front....though I did have to leave their home during a bday party for his wife because I had a meltdown for unknown reasons and told Frank to take me home before I started crying in front of everyone, well I didn't get out before the tears and that attracted attention I didn't want and I think it worried and startled them the same.)
I'm so thankful for this journal and for the internet so I can keep in touch with family and friends at my pace.
Have to call in a prescription, hoping I won't have to pick it up.
Hugs and Blessings, Judy :)
Posted by on March 8, 2005 01:35 PM