April 25, 2005
Almost off Paxil
Hello :)
I am on week 5 of going off Paxil 10mg per week (started at 50). So at the end of this week, I get to start taking the new 'wonderdrug' Cymbalta. I really hope this is all worth it.
It has been awful these weeks especially lately. Pain, fatigue, sleep disorder are all worse. Anxiety and not wanting to leave the house are going through the roof! My mind is even less alert than usual with Fibro Fog. I had a meltdown, hyperventilating out loud uncontrollable sobbing because I wanted to not feel dizzy and shaky and I'd showered and done my hair because I was gonna beat this thing and go to the store with my husband. NOPE. The decisive moment was post shower & hair & underwear, but prior to the BRA. Putting on the bra would mean I was going to put on my jeans and top and shoes and go. Not putting on the bra meant I couldn't, I couldn't pull myself together to go anywhere afterall. So the moment that I picked up a krinkle thrown on dress rather than the bra I had decided. And I began with tears dripping down my cheeks, then more, then my husband noticed and you all can support this, once someone sees you crying and is sympathetic, you cry more! It was a half hour of donkey noise, nose blowing, hyperventilating, uncontrollable sobbing. He held me and gave me an ativan (good man). Finally, I was breathing normally and my nose was clear (toward the end, blowing my nose, I kept saying...'can you believe all of that came out of my cute little nose??" and he'd laugh and say no). he put me to bed and kissed me bye cause he was going to the store. When he kissed me my lips started to quiver and my eyes got wet and he stayed and talked me back to relaxed, then he left and I slept. At least this meltdown didn't end me up on the bathroom floor in a fetal position.
I can't go anywhere, but I have to go get something notarized at the bank TODAY. So I have to go there. I WILL go there somehow.
My family and my 'sweet gal' friend, she knows who she is, are my life right now. I reach out here, Thank you Tracy! And visit another site of a friend's regularly. I talk to my family and long to talk to my 'sweet gal' friend, as she's going through something really big.
Wish me luck and send prayers if so inclined, this last week of going off Paxil.....
Hugs and Blessings, Judy
Posted by on April 25, 2005 11:45 AM
thank you Judy for helping me a lot even when you are going through so much yourself.
Pilgrim
Posted by: pilgrim at April 25, 2005 5:40 PM
I am sorry to hear how hard it is for you to come off of paxil, I have lupus and also was recently dx'd with fibro, I do not know much about it so I have been reading your blog trying to learn more. I hope the Cymbalta works wonders for you.
Posted by: Lisa at April 26, 2005 5:52 AM
Judy, thank you so much for visiting my site. I appreciate your comments. I didn't know fibro caused "chemo brain". I know how you feel and will be praying for you, stay strong. I' m pulling for you!
Lee
Posted by: Lee at April 26, 2005 9:02 PM
Hello, I never responsed to any comments but I had to say something to YOU. I sympatize with you on your paxil withdrawals. Been there too many times myself only to crash each time. I want to tell you that my dr. just allowed me to try cymbalta as I am withdrawaling from paxil. It has helped tremendously. I never made it this far from 40mg to 7mgs before. I did this in a two week period. Paxil 30/Cymbalta30 for a few days. Then 20paxil/60cymbalta. Then 10paxil/60 cymbata. When I tried to go to 5 paxil too soon I felt the depression/anixiety/insomnia. Went back to 10 on paxil for a while longer and I am fine. I will try to decrease it in a few days. Why arent you taking the cymbalta to help with the withdrawals?. I could never do it without this substitute. Cymbalta is helping my fbro too......Ask you dr. No sense dealing with this withdrawal if you don't need to.........Denise
Posted by: denise pato at April 28, 2005 8:51 AM
Thanks gals for your support.
This really stinks.
Good to know there are gals out there who care.
Much needed today.
Hugs, Judy
Posted by: Judy at May 12, 2005 8:30 AM
BTW You are all in my thoughts and prayers too.
Hugs and Blessings, Judy
Posted by: Judy at May 12, 2005 8:31 AM
Im going through such a horrible time and all i hear about is how bad paxil is.. im so confused... im not sure what to do. my dr. says i should just stay on paxil... im thinking i should just switch doctors... i need some help at a time like this. any advice?
Posted by: amanda pato at January 25, 2007 9:58 PM