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April 25, 2005

Relay for Life

June 24th I am going to finally do the Relay for Life. It is for the
American Cancer Society that I have participated in for years. It's a
track we walk around and each member of the team is committed a minimum
of an hour of walking. It's a 15 hour event. For years I would walk
hours at a time, the highest was 18 miles! Pre-AVN.

Two years ago the doctor demanded that I NOT do the walk at all. I
still wrote out all the names on the luminarias that get lit around the
track. I did ONE lap--- that took me 45 minutes (it's a 1/4 mile lap)-
probably from your PC to the corner on your block!! ...I was in so much
pain. I hurt so bad but couldn't face that I really had some bone
problems. I stopped and took breaks too. Still dancing with denial at
that point.

Last year I did my hour walk...5 months post-op FVFG. I did it
with my forearm crutches. I was glad not to let the team down that
year...but everyone understands regardless...I felt good I could still
contribute. I took my time and went slow but I did it.

This year, I hope I will be able to do it. No pain nor crutches. These
are people that I only see once a year and I cannot wait to WALK the
laps...for more than Cancer and those who were close to me. June
24th...big day for me. I will also leave the possibility that I won't
be able to...that way my expectations aren't so high...but I won't
focus on that.

Why do I tell you this? Because there are moments in all of our lives
that can be extremely frustrating but taking one day at a time makes it
a bit easier to process. I am also repetitively thankful for these days
I have been granted. I may not have pain but I still take one day at a
time.
Just wanted to share,
Star

Posted by Star at 7:17 PM | Comments (0)

April 7, 2005

Fast Cars and Braves Rule

Hello folks...title is as off the subject as it can be. Haven't posted in a while...was on vacation back in FL at moms again to show all those people there how well I can walk. Had a good time, caught a few Spring Training games.

Completely off the subject is that I have such a body FULL of energy tonight, something I haven't felt in some time now. As if I can't sleep or want to do anything else but focus on this energy. Of course, we know if we have the energy and need to burn it...we do so by exrecising or whatnot but this is more than full of energy...this is a addiction feeling, a happy feeling a wordless feeling, HARD to describe. A feeling that I cannot put to rest and something I cannot solve easily.

What to do what to do...wonder how long this will last...its only been a couple of hours but it feels like a lifetime!

Anyways, thought I would check in and let everyone know I am doing JUST fine. Baseball is back, I am thankful for that...that's where my energy goes...but no home games for a week!
Only if...
Star

Posted by Star at 11:22 PM | Comments (2)