April 25, 2005
Relay for Life
June 24th I am going to finally do the Relay for Life. It is for the
American Cancer Society that I have participated in for years. It's a
track we walk around and each member of the team is committed a minimum
of an hour of walking. It's a 15 hour event. For years I would walk
hours at a time, the highest was 18 miles! Pre-AVN.
Two years ago the doctor demanded that I NOT do the walk at all. I
still wrote out all the names on the luminarias that get lit around the
track. I did ONE lap--- that took me 45 minutes (it's a 1/4 mile lap)-
probably from your PC to the corner on your block!! ...I was in so much
pain. I hurt so bad but couldn't face that I really had some bone
problems. I stopped and took breaks too. Still dancing with denial at
that point.
Last year I did my hour walk...5 months post-op FVFG. I did it
with my forearm crutches. I was glad not to let the team down that
year...but everyone understands regardless...I felt good I could still
contribute. I took my time and went slow but I did it.
This year, I hope I will be able to do it. No pain nor crutches. These
are people that I only see once a year and I cannot wait to WALK the
laps...for more than Cancer and those who were close to me. June
24th...big day for me. I will also leave the possibility that I won't
be able to...that way my expectations aren't so high...but I won't
focus on that.
Why do I tell you this? Because there are moments in all of our lives
that can be extremely frustrating but taking one day at a time makes it
a bit easier to process. I am also repetitively thankful for these days
I have been granted. I may not have pain but I still take one day at a
time.
Just wanted to share,
Star
Posted by Star on April 25, 2005 7:17 PM