October
october comes tomorrow. tomorrow. so fast. panicking inside. panicking outside. terrified. TERRIFIED. NO ONE GETS IT!! i want the whole month to GO AWAY! My therapist says it isn't the month that is bad, i say YES IT IS! its the whole month, its horrible, it starts tomorrow.the anniversary of the 1st date is tomorrow.1st date.1st ....everything.he killed me inside. as though i weren't already half-dead to begin with. then it went down hill from there.
i feel like i have shards of glass piercing through my skin all over. if i move, it will kill me. if i dont move, i'm going to bleed to death anyway. i dont know which way to go. I have been having panic attacks every minute I'm alone. And I'm alone most of the time.
dont worry about me... i go through this every year.
i cant talk about it anymore right now.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Oh honey,I believe that the whole month is a terrible trial every year for you. The first date, would be the first date with your abusive bf? And I understand the SRA would occur later in the month.I'm here, you can email me directly (jmharderaz@yahoo.com) any timeI think it's just rotten that your birthday which should be joyous comes on the heels of a painful anniversary. You're in my prayers, Love, Judy