Faculty meeting today about child abuse.
Faculty meeting today. All about child abuse. With detailed re-enactments on video, just in case we couldn't imagine what "abuse" meant. No, they had to show exactly what was meant by physical, emotional, and sexual abuse. :( Then on the video it talked about the signs and symptoms of child abuse.
I sat there with my knees up to my chin. And cut a hole into the roof of my mouth with a pen cap.
I got out of there immediately when it was over. I didn't even say goodbye to any of my colleagues. I hope they didn't notice.
There has been a lot of arguing inside tonight. Lots of switching going on. SadGirl crying about "the bad people." Tuck trying to help her. Missy is pissed off and angry at everyone for talking at all, and keeps threatening to cut my hands up to make sure her presence and her anger are visible. Had to fight to keep myself away from the knife drawer tonight and worked hard at keeping myself distracted. She's not a nice person, and I already have scars across my hands to prove that she means what she says. Last year she put a hot iron down on my hand (3 times, just to make her point) and I got 3rd degree burns. A couple years ago she cut through part of a nerve on my other hand, which still makes my finger twitch and ache and the scar is still there. We've learned to not mess around with Missy. For tonight at least, I've managed to avoid cutting, but I'm not sure how.
I really hate it when I have to sit through faculty meetings like that.
I wanted to scream.
Funny though if I screamed and ran out, it seems like no one would have even looked up.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Oh my, so sorry..... I'm sure it was a requirement as a teacher to see the abuse video. I'm sooooo sorry you had to experience the afternoon. I wonder if you could tell your boss that you were abused as a child and cannot attend these abuse awareness meetings? Say no more or less. Or I guess there's a grapevine there that would pick it up and run over you with it.So sorry you hurt and that it stirred up the turmoil within. I pray that Missy can be heard without hurting you...Can your husband help when Missy wants to hurt you?? Can you get the words out to him to come help?God Bless You Sweet Gal : )Hugs and Blessings, Judy