Waiting for a friend who won't show up.

She still thinks that my ex-best friend is coming back today .The ex-friend we haven't seen or heard from since January. Mae keeps saying, "maybe today!" K knows today is my birthday. And has always come to celebrate before. Always come to spend the evening. Mae is convinced that K is going to show up today, as a surprise. I have talked to Mae about it, Nobody has talked to Mae about it, Carol has talked to Mae about it, and our therapist has talked to Mae about it. :sigh But Mae keeps saying "No, i know it, she'll come, she's nice, she'll come." She still has her hopes up. This morning I yelled out loud ( sorry ) at Mae, "she's NOT COMING! get OVER it!" I was just crying because I couldn't take Mae saying it over and over again, "but she will, I know she will". NO, she ISNT. We haven't heard from K in 10 months. She's NOT going to come back today just for my birthday. :( I am going to go to the park and swing today probably, and go to Toys R Us and let Mae pick out anything she wants for a present, and try to keep her busy and distracted, but I'm really afraid that tonight she is going to get hit HARD by the fact that K doesn't show up. :( I'm afraid she is in for a really big disappointment. I'm afraid of her reaction. dammit... i still do not know what to do to help her. Even right now while I'm typing this, Mae is still telling me, "she'll come, ok? ok, she'll come."

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