helping SadGirl find some help
SadGirl went to therapy yesterday. i'm not sure exactly what she said or what happened. she cried though but i dont know why. i think it was flashbacks... i dont know. i would need to ask our therapist.
but she had SadGirl call inside for someone to help.
i came to help her. it took me a little while.
nervous. very nervous to.
she saw me there to help her and i guess that it made her feel better to know i was there to drive her home. i didn't say anything to our T since it was SadGirl's time there... i just sat behind her about 8 feet away and let her know i was there in the dark.
she really wanted S. i know that. i told her i know that. she wants our therapist more than she wants me. i would too. SadGirl's a smart kid. she knows where she can get real hugs and hold hands with a person on the outside. she might be little but she can tell the difference between outside and inside people. if i had to choose betwee S and me, I'd choose S. too.
S said something to SadGirl about "someday you will want her more than you want me" and SadGirl just panicked inside. she thinks that S is planning to leave her already. i cant write about this. it makes SadGirl get all upset inside. she doesnt want anyone but our therapist. I dont think SadGirl can imagine that me,C****,Pilgrim,Claire,Tuck, or any of the rest will ever have a relationship with her the way she does with our t.
i have to figure out some ways to keep SadGirl safe on vacation. we have things coming up that are making SadGirl really scared. she's panicking a lot.
nobody
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Hey Jo,
Great post and great job coming to support Mae. I didn't know you could do that. I know you'll watch over her for the trip. I'll pray that God watches over all of you.
I miss talking with you, sorry we miss each other so much.
Hugs and Blessings, Judy