Sad

Tonight is my last night here on vacation with my family. And I just want to be with them. But theres a bunch of people here that I dont know and they are loud and talking a bunch and its scaring me. And SadGirl's been going on all week about being scared here because my brother in law says bad words and talks too loud, so I try to stay away from him because he scares her too much. (Yesterday, you know what SadGirl says to me? "I shouldn't be around people that say bad words, that isn't a good choice." --- my therapist is rubbing off on her I think). I just want to be with my family but is too busy here and too many people and I dont know what to do and I feel unwelcome I dont know why but I just want to disappear. I go home tomorrow and I'm going to miss my family so much but I also miss my home but I like being here too. I just dont know what to do. I shut down when my brother in law is talking because he's either saying something that's teasing me or saying something loud and bad words and that's just too much to take for SadGirl and for me too and I feel like an idiot. I just want to be with my sister and Sammy and my mom and dad, that's ALL.
I like to stay here and help out. We have been helping with cleaning up and with Sam and helping around the house this week and helped mom get ready for Christmas and everything. It was nice to feel useful again and like somebody needed me. I will miss that and I know SadGirl will too. Missy's starting to get mad at me for complaining so I need to shut my fat mouth, I'm sorry for whining.

Posted by pilgrim | Filed under: Biofeedback

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