my view...nobody

This is just me, nobody.
Its hard for me to go to work on the days I have to be there. Thankfully its not often. Usually C**** or Pilgrim handle it. I'm glad about that.
I'm 17. I still feel like I'm in high school. I didn't go through college like they did. To me, I'm still sitting at my desk by the window in study hall, junior year of high school, trying to figure out what to write in my journal for my English teacher.
For my career I think I'd like to be a librarian. I love to read more than just about anything. Something quiet...where I can be left alone. People are scary and complicated. Books are simple and filled with information. I can learn about anything. I'd be happy just lost in a big, old library filled with books. If I was a librarian, I could get lost in the back book shelves for days on end. Or maybe I could be a researcher. I could disappear for weeks at a time, researching something difficult... no one would miss me, and I'd be content to curl up in the back of the Library of Congress with my glasses and a blanket and a diet Coke. Alone.
Teaching just seems so "out there." You have to just really put your heart on the line if you're going to be a teacher. There are days when I do go to school...but its hard for me. I feel like I dont belong there. Its better if someone else takes over right away. I'd sort of like to teach a little bit, join their team, but I dont think I'm ready right now. I'd rather just watch for now.
If there was only a job that required me to just sit on a mountainside with a pile of books, a blanket, and a kitten from 9-5.

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