hearing voices
I just learned that my (Pilgrim) voice sounds just like SadGirl's.
(She is 5... i am in my 30's... but we sound alike!). Yesterday on the phone with Judy, apparently she was talking to the 5 year old and asked for me. The 5 year old called my name inside and I came to talk to Judy, but Judy didn't believe it was me at first! Or even for a while, I think, because my voice sounds just like hers. Judy didn't believe it was me because that's not the voice that says "Hi, this is Pilgrim" on my voice mail whe you leave a message. I had to explain that THAT is actually CAROL!! Just pretending to be me!! Then Judy said that Nobody's voice sounds different than all of ours, she sounds just like a teenager, intbetween Sadgirl and Carol. I don't even actually know how Nobody's voice sounds, actually. I've never heard it on the outside.
Confused now?
Imagine hearing them all in your head.
I remember when I was little,perhaps 9, my mom told me about how peoples' voices sound different internally than they do externally. That really threw me for a loop. I always wondered what my voices sounded like outside.
I am going to try to get a tape recording of everyone's voices. Its really scary, but I think I want to hear what everyone sounds like.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
hi there, i'd say though its amazing to hear their voices on tape please do so under the guidance of your T. (hey btw did you ever do the videos she was suggesting last year?) I progressed from tape to video the other nite and I still havent posted about it (but will try to post them). So yeah... very unnerving but ultimately worthwile. Could you discuss it with S?
It's all true.....I called and talked to Sad Girl because she was so very distraught the night before on IM'ing & I was really concerned about what she might do. She was planning to seriously harm herself, yet like Pilgrim said, 'they' laid on the floor in front of the tv and zoned out...cept for the call to the T which was a good idea. I asked Sad Girl if she would let me talk to Pilgrim, if she could ask Pilgrim to come to the phone..I wasn't even sure if she could do that, and then I asked if I should call to Pilgrim, didn't know if that would work....
anyway then Pilgrim, did come on the phone and combined with fatigue her sweet voice sounded very young, and at first I did think I still was talking to Sad Girl who has learned to pretend to be older around people. I have to apologize to Pilgrim for misjudging her...I was afraid Sad Girl didn't want me to talk to Pilgrim and tell of my concerns. Well it was the grown up Pilgrim and after about 5 minutes when she actually started talking and not just saying yes or no, actually volunteering information and talking about the situation, then I knew it was her. She was surprised I found their voices similar and Carol's so different and also I've heard nobody's voice and she's a teen voice between P's voice and Carol's. Suggested the tape recorder, journaling asking others to tape something so all could hear each other and to this she thought it would be creepy...it certainly does seem to validate the reality of the different beings and DID. Accepting that she has DID, the tape could be cool I think. I thank Sad Girl for trusting me to talk with Pilgrim and Pilgrim for talking nitty gritty with me with Sad Girl set on self harm.
Hugs Blessings & Love, Judy