Goodbyes are Hard
My mentor teacher is retiring this year. We had her retirement party the other day.
She is really the best. My principal (AMAZING guy) is being moved to a different school next year. A couple other teachers are going to different district.
Oh and, the pastor of our church is leaving too, another state, Sunday is his last day.
Goodbyes are so hard. So hard.
Today at the staff meeting, our principal gave us another pep talk and told everyone how great and professional and wonderful we are, how he's never taught with a better staff in all 23 years, how he loves us and this school. About carrying on and keeping up the dream even with our new principal. (We are getting some 28 year old guy next year geez) He praised a lot of us by name.
I went by his office afterward and said to him that we will NOT let him down, we will not let our students down, we will carry on his dream and our dream for the students and the school and won't let anyone get in the dream. He was really positive. "Of course you will!" he said. "You have a vision!"
After I got to my car, I felt like crying.
Why is it that strong male role models in my life are always leaving?
Of course we will keep on going without him, and our principal will still be there in a way. Mae was upset too--thinking about times she got left by dad. I reminded her how this isn't like then-- we can still see our principal sometimes around the district. He's just going to a new school, not disappearing off the planet. And I reminded her that I'M not going anywhere, that I know she's sad and doesn't like it when people go away but that I'll stay here with her. That helped her I think. And I know that I can still visit and call my friend who's retiring as well. She'll just be a phone call or e-mail away if I want to talk to her.
But still...goodbyes are so hard.
Next week at school is going to be so tough.
I've been watching my mentor pack up her room. All year she has been giving me her old supplies and materials she no longer needs. Its like the passing down of the crown from the queen to the princess. Its a heavy load I'm going to carry, to carry on the legacy that my mentor started. I can do it, and I will do it. I have big shoes to fill, and I can fill them, but its still going to be a challenge.
I'm not sure how I'm going to handle next week, especially the last day of school. I always cry when I put my kids on the bus and send them home to their mommas on the last day, and I have to say goodbye to them for the whole summer.
I'm wondering how in the world I'm going to manage it this year, when I have to say goodbye to all these extra people too.
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hi pilgrim. may i have your email address? it would be really cool if i could talk to you. if not its ok. ttyl ~little one
28,God thats so young.I know its so depressing when things change,but theres always new things to come,lots of new things to come which will someday be great memorys,right?
Im glad things are going so well for you,and Im glad the treatment has helped you so much,I knew it would be good for you.Take good care of yourself.
Teresa
Hello little one,how are you doing?
28,God thats so young.I know its so depressing when things change,but theres always new things to come,lots of new things to come which will someday be great memorys,right?
Im glad things are going so well for you,and Im glad the treatment has helped you so much,I knew it would be good for you.Take good care of yourself.
Teresa
Hello little one,how are you doing?
HEY TERESA EMAIL ME!!!
Hey sweet Pilgrim,
I got your messages and first off I'm soooo happy about the good news from your cardiac doc!
Keep following directions and you'll be a-ok.
Honey, your messages and your posts have a strength about them that was missing before. Your voice is stronger, clearer, your writing is from a place of strength even as you write about the sorrow of saying goodbyes. I'm so happy you've found this strength.
Knowing YOU better will equip you to deal better with all that is difficult in life, including goodbyes. You'll be sad, cry, and then instead of dwelling on it and losing yourself, literally, you will move on ... because we as women keep getting stronger. It's been your turn for quite awhile and I'm glad you finally got to take it!!
(Sorry I'm still DOWN, they're gonna have to up this med too, I'm not as sick, but the anxiety and agitation (aka b*tchy) are there and sneak up on me. I've only left the house 3x in 8 weeks. Next week is Garretts HS graduation not only do I have to go, but I have to have the family all over for cake & pictures after..OMG, can't think of that now... (tho cake is ordered)..)))
Anyway I'm so glad you gained some confidence and strength through your IP experience.
I loved hearing your voice.
Please stay in touch & know I'm down here somewhere listening.
Love Judy