How can I make money? How can I rest assured?
I have a big issue on my hands. It takes up way too much of my brain power.
I need to make some money. Especially money to pay for treatment that I go to, like my therapist and nutritionist, and pay for gas (we all know how expensive THAT is these days!) for all the driving I do to get around. There's 1 thing wrong: too many bills, not enough money to pay for it all.
I'm always worried about money, and I probably shouldn't be. One of the things I always loved about Caroline Ingalls on Little House on the Prairie was house she would always say so calmly, "The Lord will Provide." And I know that He will. God always takes care of me, and always has. God has never let me go hungry or without a safe place to sleep. [Notice we also have an inside person named Caroline-- who embodies a lot of that character from LHOTP]
But I have this war within me. Always worrying about money and bills... the bills that come so fast, and the money that comes in slow [teaching doesn't pay much]... and trying to remember that God will take care of all my needs.
Yet still, my bank account shrinks. And I want to go back inpatient to the hospital. I want to see my nutrtionist. I want to be able to afford to see my therapist twice a week.
I NEED TO GET BETTER. I NEED TO RECOVER from the eating disorder and this DID stuff.
I have SO MUCH I can do with my life, and gifts that I can share especially with kids... i have so much to offer... I just have to get this eating disorder stuff and dissociation stuff under control... and I need treatment to be able to do that.
But the thing is, I can't afford it. And I dont know how to get more money, don't know how to get the help and the knowledge and wisdom and the wise words that I need right now.And that is so frustrating.
I'm trying to think of ways to make more money, more knowledge, wisdom, help. But I'm also trying to rest assured, in what Jeremiah 33:3 says "Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know."
Now, how can I rest assured?
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
hi
I understand your struggles. I have some mental health problems too which I am struggling to cope.
I just started a blog for the first time. And I just got out of the hospital a week ago.
Hope you will visit my blog.
Crazy Insane
Hey sweet Gal :)
My sister is a teacher, 6th grade, and she is usually approached by 1-3 parents wanting her to tutor their kids in some subject over the summer. She gets a pretty good $/hr, though I don't remember what.
I know the little ones you teach are very special.....any way you can care for one or more students, giving Mom's a break one day a week each or something like that?? Like at their homes?
Just a thought.....
Wishing you well and praying you can rest assured in God's Hands.
Hugs and Blessings, Judy
I don't remember the verse anymore...but it kept me alive after Sammy was born:
""My ways are not your ways, and my thoughts are not your thoughts. Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my thoughts higher than your thoughts, and my ways higher than your ways."" declares the Lord". Isaiah 55
"Your Higher Ways teach me to trust you.
Your Higher Ways are not like mine.
Your Higher Ways are the ways of the Father...
Guiding His children with His love.
So let it rain.
And let my eyes grow dim with tears of pain.
This hope I have will not be washed away...
Because my soul is resting on Your Higher Ways."
Stephen Curtis Chapman
You can make it. God will provide. This of Abraham, poised and ready to sacrifice Isaac at the alter. And God came down...and provided an answer in the form of a ram.
....YOU CAN. God will....
Love,
Your Sister