I will NOT get overwhelmed this year
Every year when school starts I get overloaded and overwhelmed. I'm determined to not let that happen this year. I'm determined to find and maintain some balance. I hope I can pull it off for once. This year I am really prepared for work and got a lot of things done early. The students come back to school in a few days. I just mainly need for my mind to focus and let me get things done. That is really hard to do. One inside, named Nobody, is really, really having a hard time. She talked to my therapist for a few minutes yesterday, I'm not sure about what, but I know it opened up a lot of problems. And her depression is so bad that it spreads to me, makes me feel part of it. I know I don't feel nearly as bad as she does. But it does make it hard for me to work and get things done. I have to rely more on Caroline to get things accomplished for me.
Right now I just dont feel much like talking. I feel more like curling up on the couch with Nobody and just spacing out like she does. I dont think I have time to though. I just feel like doing nothing. Caroline is frustrated with me though, because she feels like being busy and doing EVERYTHING and she is really motivated to get things done for school. If we each had our own bodies we could do what we wanted to. Sometimes it just isnt fair to have to share.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Hi... just wanted to say that although I don't have separate identities, I DO know what it's like feeling as though there are different parts of you. I am anorexic, but there is still the "Wendy" side of me, and then the bulimic side of me. And all three have a different agenda for my life. Sometimes I feel as though I can relate rather well to your words.
((HUGS))
Stay strong.
wendy