mind is splitting again
right now i feel like i cant take anymore.
everyone inside, even the "up" people, are down. Thoughts of cutting and purging, feeling like we "NEED" to, are very strong. aching inside and outside and way overtired.
one of my pets died last night.
animals being hurt is our biggest, most traumatizing trigger. has been all my life. if there's one guaranteed way to hurt me, thats the way.
mind is splitting again. all day today. eyes dont focus. head swirly. feel so far away inside, not connected to my body.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
She was a good friend. When someone is around for so long, they so easily slip into the background...just a quiet part of our everyday lives. Always watching from the top of the couch...when they are awake. They begin to sleep more and more. The years seems to become a blur and we realize our friend has been with us for 16, 17, 18 years. How did the time go by? Wasn't it just yesterday that they were a kitten? But it wasn't yesterday. It was years ago. And now it's time to say goodbye. It doesn't seem fair.
Your friend (who was my friend too) is gone to the Rainbow Bridge, and I have a feeling that my old friend won't be long to follow. Remember that death for our pets is just another part of their life. They don't fear death like we do. You saved her from lots of pain...and she will always appreciate that.
Until you meet again. She won't be lonely. Remember that Heaven is real...
Love,
Your Sis
Sad to know about the pet