Therapy cancelled and complications
No therapy this week. Something came up in my therapist's family and she won't be in.
already i feel worse. that means no outlet this week.
appointment to appointment goes by so slow already. i am already so lonely with no one to talk to. now i'm going to miss my 2 hour session this week which i was looking forward to... this is not good.
Jo, inside, is wanting to cut just as much as I do, at the prospect of having no one to talk to for another week. We already have so many things that build up inside. Two hours of therapy a week is not nearly enough to get everything out, but that's all that I can afford (and can't actually afford that, really) and that's all my T has time for in her schedule. So I have to settle for what I can get.
Why does everything get so complicated so fast?
I dont feel like eating tonight. I dont think it will matter if I eat a little less this week. Its not like I am going to have anyone to report to anyway. No one's going to be talking to me or asking me how I'm doing, so it isn't going to matter how I'm doing. I dont have very many people in my life and no friends in real-time. No one's going to notice anything.
i hate having no one to talk to.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Hey sweet Gal,
I'm sorry your therapy was cancelled. I got your message adn was so glad to hear from you and so sad to hear you were lonely and I oculdn' help out then. Taking care of Mom is a full time 24/7 kinda thing and now I've started talking to painters, and realtors, and ...Actually Jen's uncle, my former bro-in-law is a painter and general contractor so he's taking care of the spruing up which I'm grateful for.
Spent Sunday moving as much as I could out of the kitche and den(books, movies, & photos). Friends came to help, Tina and her teen sons who are like brothers to Jen. And Mom did her best,but at one point shed overdonen and it was warm and she got sick. It kills me to see her sick--that has to hurt her chest.
Well there's more to get, more to pack in the kitchen, where my sis was packing up the dishes using her 'system' and left so much nndone. She's generally a thorn in my side but help of any kind was appreciated.
I meet with Realtors mon and tues and then choose one.
I wish I had more time so I could stay current here and participate more. I'm still here for you sweetie, just being here for myself, sometimes I get lost!
Love you, Judy