how to deal with overwhelming feelings in a healthy way
we know, we know, we can't keep doing things like we have been.
we have to be the ones that change because we cant change anyone else.
have to stop cutting. don't dare purge. its so easy to give in to anorexia at this time of year, having flashbacks and hating our body, wanting to make it smaller and smaller to disappear and not have a body at all.
Made myself eat a sandwich for supper tonight. it was really hard. it shouldn't be so hard to eat a darn sandwich. :(
have to learn to deal with things in a better way or things are never going to change. we have to figure out how to get these feelings out. there are just too many of them. too many feelings, too many inside people, too much intensity all the time.
writing, drawing, journaling, coloring, collages, its just never enough. we're alone all the time almost, and what we need is connections to people but dont have that. therapist says we need connections to each other. we agree. and are working on that. but so desperate for people in real time. in real life.
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