a volcano about to erupt
thats what it feels like inside\
cant talk about the flashbacks, nightmares with our therapist
until who knows when. until she makes some random decision that we're "safe enough " to
theres too much going on and inside its just crazy
and everyone fantasizes about cutting and burning our arms and hands while mae cries for mom and for our T
there is too much stress built up inside
it feels like we cant hold it inside much longer
this is the truth of whats going on inside, no matter how upbeat Caroline tries to talk.
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its strange how people can hear you cry, scream, see the cuts but only remember the laughter. it baffles me how people hear or see only the good and when the bad erupts it seems so out of the blue. i'm kinda dealing with that right now. i havne't journaled on it yet but i guess i'll get around to it soon.
Austin
My experience is that sometimes you *need* to talk about these things in order for things *to* become more safe- can you do things to- process them a little, or at least- get them out of your head? (I just- write them down or write down whatever comes into my head, and sometimes I draw artwork, even if it's just about the *feelings* and not the memories themselves...)
It's hard, I know. I wish I could be there for you in person. But, my thoughts and prayers are with you, so take care and stay safe.
The Real Me