Its that time of year

I am overwhelmed. Trying to finish up the school year. We have 3 weeks left and then it's summer. Right now I've got a stack of paperwork on my desk that keeps growing instead of shrinking, no matter how much I work on it. Thankfully my sister is ok after having her baby (YAY!) and she is home now. I have seen 1 picture of the baby and he looks cute from what I can tell, although it was sort of a bad picture. But hopefully someone in the family will send some decent pictures soon. It's a big weight off my shoulders to know that my sister and baby are home safe and doing ok.
But I am still trying to recover from all the panic attacks I had over last weekend and on Monday, which took a lot out of me. I did't get much sleep last week or over the weekend from worrying so much and I wore myself out. Then i worried myself sick. So I'm still sort of worn out from all that. Plus all that dang paperwork and a bunch of stress from school. Its just constant drama at my job. Its amazing how adults can act like such children.
The last few days, just out of exhaustion, I've been switching a lot and not able to get myself out of this fog. At night Mae has been extremely whiney and taking over because I fall asleep, and she takes over. I dont know what she's saying or doing but I'm finding papers torn up and lots of whiney things written on my computer. I dont know if she is writing any emails to my therapist or not. I hope not. We bother our T enough as it is.
I just feel really low, stupid, and worthless right now.
We don't have anyone to talk to now anymore. My sister will be too busy and too tired for the next few years, and she was the only person who talked to me for real.
I guess I'm just lonely and tired. Maybe having all this work to do is good for me. Something to throw myself into.

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1. Posted by The Real Me on May 11, 2006

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