I've been tagged--- a little about me.

I AM .... alone. a child. a teacher. a wanderer. a worrier. a soldier. an artist. a writer. a loner.

I WANT....comfort. a kitten. a baby. a hug from my therapist.

I WISH.... for peace. for everyone to have love, a safe place to live, and enough to eat.

I HATE.... people who are mean. Being fat.

I MISS... old friends. Looking anorexic. feeling like I belong somewhere. My mom.

I FEAR....gaining weight. Expressing myself. Being abandoned.

I HEAR....my dog sighing in his sleep. My other dog lapping up water. Law& Order SVU hottie Detective Stabler

I WONDER...when will Jesus come back? Will I ever be thin enough?Will I ever recover from this eating disorder?

I REGRET...moving away from my sister. Things not said. Not getting therapy sooner.

I AM NOT....a doormat. A mean person.

I DANCE....with preschoolers to "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" at work just about every day!

I SING.... nursery rhymes with my students.

I CRY.... alone in the bathroom or alone in my car or alone into my pillow.

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS.... a warm comforting place for children to come get a hug. Playdough animals at Art time.

I WRITE....too many damn e-mails to my therapist, probably.

I CONFUSE....myself, with the facts. Reality with pretend.

I NEED.... assurance. Comfort. A friend. Someone to talk to in real life. Someone to just hang out with.

I SHOULD....not say "should."

I START....each day with a big yawn, a stretch, and a prayer.

I FINISH... most days in exhaustion.

I'M GLAD.... that my sister had her baby. That I have a great treatment team. That I am eating more healthfully. That I am not in the hospital like I was last year at this time. That God is in control of the world.

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1. Posted by Austin of Sundrip Journals on May 13, 2006