Comfort Food
Right now i just have to stay away from everything including myself. I'm going through something really hard at home but I dont have anyone to talk to and i need to talk to someone so bad. I have a million feelings swirling around but it feels like they're choking me. It feels like my body has inflated literally over night. Mae's been begging for homemade pudding all week so I finally made her some because we needed some comfort food. Well she ate all of the pudding just since last night and I feel so sick, huge, and fat. The pudding is all gone all ready. It makes HER feel better, but it makes me feel worse. I have too much bottled up inside. I just want someone to talk to about what's going on. I ended up self injuring again and I hate it when I do that, my therapist is going to give me one of those looks and one of those lectures again. Yesterday I left a couple panicky voice mails for her over the latest crisis going on at home and she did e-mail me last night reminding me that nothing's going to get better if I go around freaking out. My husband was mad at me yesterday but was nice to me again today, but we've been all switchy anyway, and too confused. I just want to c url up and disappear. I wish I had a friend to talk to. It just seems like it would have helped so much. Mae is going to get sick on all the chocolate pudding and give me diabetes if she keeps eating this much.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
I would like to recomend a resource that I have personal knowledge of as being extremely helpful with your issue.
http://theophostic.com/displaycommon.cfm?an=4
Yeah, I can see both points of view.
Personally when I'm down or upset/confused... I go for Ice Cream.
Not that it's a bad thing... Just remember to balance that out.
You know what might make for an interesting go.
Rock Climbing.....
No, I'm actually serious. The amount of Focus and Energy involved sends everything else out of my mind. Great to just to focus and calm yourself.
Plus it's satisfying, fun not laborous and can start at any skill level. Just a Thought. Try it and you might be surprised.
I have insomnia so for me, 3 hours of climbing is guarenteed to knock me out.