Overwhelmed and about to lose my minds.
I'm so overhwlmed the past couple of weeks and it keeps getting worse. My dog is sick and at the vets, my husband needs surgery, our bills are piling up. My paycheck went down this year, because the government must think that teachers are worthless. I saw this morning on the news that it takes Howard Stern something like only 24 seconds to earn $1,000 but it takes a teacher 43 hours. What the hell is it with peoples' priorities? Last week and this week I am overwhelmed at school with "Fall Festivities" that are certain to grind me and the other teachers into the ground-- how much fesitivity can we all take before we collapse? Between book fair, fall festival, Halloween preparations, a parade, fall games, literacy celebrations, a door decorating contest, school dress up day, and 4 meetings this week alone, when am I supposed to teach? Plus today I attended a meeting and found out "Y'all ARE doing THIS paperwork TOO, every day, RIGHT?" Ummm.... NO... but I guess I'll get right on that.... that's on top of the daily paperwork I learned we had to do LAST WEEK. OH MY GOD. Someone just hang me upside down now and slap me silly, because I'm having a nervous breakdown.
Tomorrow after school I have therapy, then Wednesday after the staff meeting I see my nutritionist. I doubt that I will be conscious for either one.
Not sleeping, too worried about things that are going on to eat, got a stomach ache all the time, worried half to death about my family, scared half to death about my dog, and the 5 year anniversary of when my other dog died is coming up this week.
I don't know how I'm going to make it.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Somehow we muddle through, don't we? :-(
The old saying of "GOd only gives us as much as we can handle" is a bunch of BS if you ask me. This saying was created by one of those damn chronically happy people.
Just hang in there. I'm thinking of you, even if I am too busy to tell you.
Hi, I found your blog on google because I was looking for info on dissociation. I don't have DID but I have PTSD, and I was wondering, how do you handle it when you zone out and people think you aren't listening to them and you are? Today one of my professors was waving her hand in front of my face, and she asked me if I was on drugs and it really upset me.
Meredith-- That is unfortunately something i deal with a LOT. People are always thinking i"m not paying attention. Sometimes i am really NOT, but most of the time I am trying to, its just that someone else is in front of me and i can't get through. Sometimes I will just repeat back to the person what they just said to prove to them I heard what they said-- or at least something close-- I'll sum up what they were just talking about, so they know I do know whats going on. Or I'll just say, "I'm Sorry-- I was trying to remember something-- could you repeat what you just said?" Maybe you could try one of those things?
when it rains it pours....there right now ourselves, maybe we can start a grouop for multiples losing their minds!!
hang in there i say, one of us has to survive!!
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