I want to just be invisible
Its just jo. I'm only here because no one else is except for Caroline, and she's obsessed with getting work done. That's all she's doing these days, is working and working more, trying to get ready for school when it starts. I think she is just trying to keep every body busy so we don't freak out, since we're all stressed out about one thing or another.
We finally got to go to therapy today. Mae talked the whole time. I'm glad she did. It made her feel a little better thank goodness. It'll be my turn to go see our therapist on Thursday, and I hope I get to. I have so much to say, and I feel safe in her office.Me, i think i'm going to just stay quiet for now .And out of sight. Out of sight means out of mind, and I dont want anyone to hear or see me right now. I feel so stupid, fat, worthless, and ugly right now. I want to just disappear for a really long time.. i just don't want to do or say anything wrong anymore.I wish I could do things right but I manage to screw up so many things. I want to just be invisible.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
hoping the T appointment works out for you on thursday.
will cross my fingers and toes.
Hello Jo
Gr8 to hear from you again, hope you feel better soon. That's nice to let Mae have a chance to talk wish I could be that patient!
Kestrel
I know the feeling. S let Rachel talk last time and it made her feel so much better. I think just sitting there and saying nothing is sometimes helpful. Today we went with her to her consultant and learned some better ways to cope with memories. One thing she said that struck all of us was that things would get better. I suppose holding on to hope is all you can do. It's all we do.
Kathryn
Giving you space... but you know where to find me:-)
Maia