Going home for Christmas and nervous
Pretty soon I'll be getting on an airplace and flying back to my family's houses for Christmas and I'm nervous. Not just about hanging out with my family but just of traveling and being away from home. With the grown ups gone I'm a lot more closed in on myself and shy. I've lost weight and I don't feel as strong as Caroline always does. Going places by myself makes me nervous. I'm kind of tiny and I look about 12 years old with the attention span of a gnat. Airports and strangers and noise are hard to deal with. I just want to skip the traveling part and get to the part where we're all sitting around the Christmas tree on Tuesday morning. The big family party makes me nervous too because I feel like I don't know my aunts, uncles, and cousins anymore. I never really felt comfortable around any of them in the 1st place when I did live there and now they're more like strangers. The only people I really want to see are my parents and my sister and her kids, and my gramma. Everyone else just confuses me and makes me nervous. I keep worrying that they might tease me or find out that I have major problems going on inside or say something that'll embarass us or something. Anyway I'll be there soon.
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we hope the traveling was ok for you, too. i like familiar surroundings and people, so upheaval is kinda hard for us. but we hope your time was better than you expected.
you are in our thoughts and hope the time was "ok" for you. we hope you have a happy new year and to hear from you soon ...
Come back soon, Pilgrim! Missing you!
I hope this went ok for you. I don't like traveling much either, I prefer to be in familiar surroundings.
I kinda feel the same way about my husband's family as you are about your aunts and stuff. I go for him, but I'd really rather not be there. Heck, I can't even keep them all straight. lol