Bad day-- but handling it differently than I used to
The past 2 days haven't been very good ones for me. Especially today. I've been coming down with some stomach thing. And then today I got some news I didn't want to hear by someone who completely confuses me, so I don't even understand most of what they were trying to say and I get a lot of mixed messages from them. I'm trying to decide if they are someone I want to continue being around. Anyway, today hasn't been a good day. I'm having to try to be really strong to protect the inside kids. I haven't wanted to be strong but it's my job. So I do it. I came home today from an appointment feeling really sick and like i wanted to hide. But I was strong and I ate anyway. Normally I would go cut to deal with the feelings I was having-- thats what the old me would have done. But instead I called around until I found someone in my support system who was home to answer the phone, and talked for a while. Then I came home and ate a good lunch. And I took a nap. And I talked on the phone to two more people. I'm trying to stay present and deal with what's going on instead of trying to escape.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Reaching out for support is always helpful.
I think you may not know how great of a job you are doing. I really think it helped you a lot by going to Shades of Hope. I see that you are taking control of your life, from what you are saying. Stay strong and keep up the great job.