Time
Time seems to be just standing still the past few days. I feel like I'm in a waiting game. Waiting for things to change, waiting for I don't know what for. Waiting for God to do something. I've done and said and prayed everything I can think of in 2008. I'm exhausted in every way a person can be. I've changed so much. But I still have that ache. I need so badly for God to do something. For things to be different inside me still. I need a person to show up, a friend to call, someone to reach out to me and call me up to get together. I need my phone to ring or a car to pull up at my house. IneedJesusinpersontoshowup. Time just seems to be NOT MOVING ON. I feel like everything around me is standing still. I've done everything I can think of, asked God for help in every way I can imagine. I'm just .... waiting. Its like the whole world is moving on, but here I stand alone.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
I'm really sorry that it hurts so much for you. I can't imagine how it would feel to be so deserted and alone. I don't know when it will get better...maybe when Jesus comes. Thanks for being there for me over Christmas break. It's really not like that all the time, it's just that stupid DH gets really possessive when you're here. Now he has me, here in this house, alone, again, which is where he wants me and where I'm meant to be. Things won't always be this way. For me or for you. Someday things will change.
Love,
Your Sis