October 07, 2004
Tired, achey and fed up!
I think today has been one of my worst days health wise for a good while (leaving the lip biopsy out of it). I still have the back ache and various other aches & the eczema is still flaring. People are noticing it, and I'm not surprised because it looks as sore as it is. I'm loath to use the steroid ointment because it tends to thin my skin, but I'm going to have to do something about it other than applying hand cream.
The IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) has been worse today than it has been since before my hysterectomy (in November 2001). I've taken four loperamide tablets, and I'm tempted to take more as my tummy is still feeling unsettled. As with the eczema, I have no idea what is making it flare. The only fruit or veg I had yesterday was an apple. I have the sort of IBS that is made worse by fibre, unfortunately. I only have to look at a vegetable and I have to rush to the loo, which is a shame because I love most fruits, and raw vegetables. I suppose I ought to talk to the doctor about my stomach problems, but as I've had them for twenty years I don't think he's going to be particularly bothered!
I think the fibromyalgia is starting to flare too. I've got that general 'toothache all over' feeling and more severe pain in lots of my muscles. I also noticed pain in my achilles tendon when I was out this morning. The fact that I wasn't sleeping well earlier in the week is probably due to the FMS too. Hopefully it won't be a very severe flare this time.
I got nausea from the lithium this evening. Fortunately I don't get it very often, but it's not very nice and I could have done without it tonight. I think the lithium might be the cause of the increased hair shedding too. My mood isn't too bad, but I'm making a concerted effort not to think about the future too much. Over the last few months my health has got steadily worse, in lots of ways. No, I don't want to think about my future. It scares me. I'm not afraid of being ill, and I know I don't have anything life-threatening, but I'm not 40 yet, and my quality of life probably compares to someone thirty years older.
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