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November 01, 2004
Physically OK. Mentally down.
I woke up feeling just about ok physically this morning. Tired and achey, but without the nausea. I'm beginning to notice it now, but I haven't eaten today yet. Eczema is still sore but not itchy any more. Lots of achey bits, especially my back and feet/ankles. Tummy has been ok so far. I didn't take many loperamide over the weekend, so I've probably got enough to manage until my prescription comes through, without having to see the doctor. I need to see him soon though. I'm not feeling so good mentally, mainly because of the intrusive thoughts. Nasty stuff about people dying and that sort of thing. I don't 'believe' it, but it's not nice. Maybe my meds need tweaking.
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Pains
I'm feeling pretty much ok mood wise today. My tummy is still ok. So is the eczema. The pain is increasing though. I have muscle pains in my neck, shoulders, back, chest, collar bone area, arms, legs, and feet - yes really! I also get a weird pain on and off that is from my neck to the bottom of my back, and feels like my spine is throbbing. The pain isn't too bad yet, but I may need to hit the painkillers later.
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November 02, 2004
Very achey
I'm feeling very tired and very achey all over. My stomach is ok so far. The eczema is sore but not itchy. I didn't sleep well so I had a lie-in this morning. Mood wise I'm ok.
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Tired, achey and very sweaty!
I'm feeling even more tired and achey, but otherwise much the same. I might get through another week without having to see my doctor - yay! Lots of hot flushes today. Yuck! I thought the colder weather might help, but it just makes me feel cold and clammy. The new medication is increasing the amount I sweat too. Moodwise I'm feeling pretty good right now.
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November 03, 2004
Tired, achey and sore!
I'm just so tired and achey. I don't think the cold weather is helping. The 'cut' on my left hand from the eczema isn't healing, and it makes using that hand very sore. My tummy is just about ok at the moment, unusually! Moodwise I'm feeling ok-ish, but still having trouble with the intrusive thoughts. I do know how to deal with them, but I wish I didn't have them in the first place. I've discovered a bony lump on my right wrist. I can't believe it's always been there or I would have noticed it before. I'll mention it to the doctor when I see him, but it's probably connected to arthritis I expect.
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Feeling weird!
I'm feeling really weird. Sort of nauseous and weak. I had a major 'hot flush' when I was in a shop this afternoon, and I've felt like this since. I'm not entirely sure it was a hot flush to be honest. Anyhow, everything else is much the same. I'm going to be taking it very easy this evening.
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November 04, 2004
Much the same
I'm feeling much the same as yesterday. Not quite as weird, but not right. Tummy seems to be waking up again though. I thought about going to the doctor's this morning about my sore hand, but decided not to bother.
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Still feeling weird
Still feeling a bit icky. Sort of nauseous, tired and I can't quite describe it. Much the same as this morning, just more tired, and more achey etc. My hand still isn't healing very well. I might have to take it to the doctor's next week.
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November 05, 2004
Really tired
I'm feeling tired (especially as I had to get up early), achey, and generally yucky this morning. My hand seems to be healing a bit at last. Tummy is still ok-ish. Mood wise I'm feeling much the same as I have been, a bit low, a bit stressed, but not really bad.
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Pooped!
My hand split again in between my fingers (because of the eczema), and was very sore earlier, but it's a bit better now. I'm going to have to mention it to my doctor next week. I also need to tell him about this bony lump on my wrist. It doesn't hurt, but I'm sure it hasn't always been there or I would have noticed it before. I also need to tell him that I'm feeling depressed again, and maybe if I have enough time talk about the IBS, which is back again. Deep joy! I'm pretty tired. It's been a busy week. I was recently told that if you have fibromyalgia you should be careful not to overdo things on your good days. I haven't managed not to overdo things on my bad days yet! I'm quite achey too, to the extent that I have pain of some description over about 75% of my body. It's not too bad though. The amitriptyline keeps it down to a bearable level most of the time. I have stronger painkillers (dihydrocodeine), but I try not to use them unless I really can't manage without, because I don't want to get addicted to them.
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November 06, 2004
Same old, same old...
I'm feeling much the same as yesterday really, with a bit of a headache over my right eye too. Tired , achey, etc. Moodwise, ok-ish but not great.
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Better
Still feeling exactly the same as this morning, except that the headache is better after taking a painkiller at lunch time. Mood is better too, due to new hairdo!
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November 07, 2004
I need sleep!!!
I had another bad night's sleep. I seem to be sleeping extremely restlessly at the moment. Apart from that I'm feeling much the same. Tired (obviously), achey, tummy is a bit dodgy, and the split between my fingers has opened up again. Fortunately I seem to have got used to the 'Salagen' tablets after the initial nausea, and they work very well. It's really nice having a normal amount of saliva for the first time in about a year! The hot flushes are still a pain, but I just have to get on with it I suppose. The only thing that bothers me is that I sometimes feel sick when I get them, but I think that could be the fibromyalgia.
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Very tired and achey
Apart from being more tired and very achey, I'm feeling pretty much the same as I was this morning. My tummy is threatening to play up though, maybe due to too much apple juice!
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November 08, 2004
Feeling awful
Horrible headache. Not staying online for long today.
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What a day!
I've had the most horrendous headache from about 8am until a short while ago. It started off all over my head, then went to my right eye and the whole right side of my face. I also felt sick and kept going hot and cold, and feeling as if I was falling backwards into my bed. Horrible! I'm a bit concerned that it could be the 'Salagen' reacting with my other meds, so I've stopped it until I've seen my GP. Not surprisingly I'm feeling tired and washed out, as I haven't been sleeping well anyway, and couldn't sleep with the headache. I've barely eaten anything either. Everything else has been much the same as usual.
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November 09, 2004
Feeling grotty
I woke up about 4am feeling nauseous again. I went to see my doctor this morning. He said the headache and feeling sick could be a migraine, but it also could well be due to the 'Salagen', the saliva increasing medication the hospital doctor gave me. I stopped taking it yesterday and won't take it any more. He says the 'split' in my hand is probably slightly infected so he's taken a swab and given me some antibiotic cream. As far as the depression is concerned there's nothing else he can do, as I expected. The bump on my wrist is just a nodule. I don't have the pain today, but I'm feeling nauseous/giddy still, and very weak.
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November 10, 2004
Still feeling yucky
I'm still not feeling too good. Extremely tired and still a bit nauseous. I'm not sure whether the antibiotic ointment is having any effect on my hand yet, but I suppose it will take time. Tummy is feeling a bit dodgy, so I'm back on the loperamide. Mood is ok.
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November 11, 2004
So tired
I'm feeling very tired again today. I'm still not sleeping terribly well. I'm just generally achey. Nothing out of the ordinary. Tummy is playing up. Eczema ok-ish. Mood is ok.
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Infection
I'm feeling much the same as this morning, just more tired. I had a phone call from the doctor's surgery this afternoon to say that the swab the doctor took showed an infection, and that there's a prescription for me. I asked them to send it to the chemist's and I'll pick it up tomorrow. I rang back to find out what sort of infection it was and they couldn't tell me, because they didn't know and I'd have to ring up tomorrow and speak to my doctor. I found that rather irritating.
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November 12, 2004
Much the same.....again
I'm feeling much the same this morning. Very tired and achey. My tummy is a bit unsettled at the moment, but I'll take some loperamide and that should sort it out. The split on my hand seems to be healing up, but I suppose I'd still better pick up the prescription. I've got a paper cut or something on the other hand and that's not looking too happy. My mood is ok today. Pretty good really.
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Tired and very achey
Blogger keeps eating my posts! I just wrote a long one too! Anyhow, in short, as I'm too tired to type it again:- I'm feeling very tired and achey, but it has been a busy week. I've got some antibiotic tablets for the infection. Tummy settled down without loperamide for once. Hand is healing up ok. Feeling nauseous from time to time. Mood is pretty good.
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November 13, 2004
Tummy trouble
I'm feeling ok this morning. Tired and achey, but that's nothing new. Mood is pretty good. Pretty bad tummy trouble though, which I'm sure is due to the antibiotics. I'm popping loperamide like sweeties! I don't have much choice really, if I want to go out at all today!
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Worn out!
I think I might have overdone things today. I am soooo tired and achey. Everything else is much the same. Tummy is under control thanks to the loperamide.
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November 14, 2004
Headache
I'm not feeling all that great this morning. I woke up with a headache. I think it's just a muscular one and nothing out of the ordinary. I've taken some paracetamol so hopefully it will ease off soon. My tummy is already playing up, so I've taken some loperamide too. Otherwise, I'm tired and achey and feeling generally a bit blah. Eczema is playing up again. Hand seems to be healing well. Mood is ok.
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Better
The headache went - thank goodness. It wasn't really bad, just one of those odd muscular ones that get worse if I'm lying down. I'm feeling pretty tired and achey, but the loperamide is controlling the tummy problems. The eczema is probably worse because I was handling all those toiletries yesterday and wiping off bottles so I had detergent on my hands. The really bad bit has healed. I'm feeling nauseous on and off, but that could be the antibiotics. I've done an awful lot more than usual over the last few days, and I hope I'm not setting myself up for a flare up. It's just so hard not to overdo things when I'm feeling relatively good. Mentally I'm feeling ok too. I think I've worked out how not to get so stressed over Christmas shopping this year. I'm going to give most people vouchers or money. I need to start writing the cards soon, as my hands won't stand up to doing them all at once. I thought I might include a little printed newsletter with some of them, to save a lot of writing.
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November 15, 2004
Pretty good
I'm feeling ok today. Tired and achey, but that's 'normal'. Tummy alright thanks to loperamide, and eczema not too bad. Feeling good mood wise too.
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November 16, 2004
OK again
I'm feeling pretty good mood wise again today. Physically I'm a bit more achey, but I'm not planning anything too energetic apart from going to the hairdresser's, the chiropodist's, and doing a little bit of shopping. My tummy is still playing up, but it's ok with the loperamide. Eczema isn't too bad. I'm quite tired, but then, when am I not tired?!
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November 17, 2004
Things are pretty good
I'm still feeling pretty much ok. Yes, I'm tired and achey and the IBS is still around, but no major problems. Perhaps it's the antibiotics that are having this effect. Mood wise I'm feeling better than I usually would this time of year too. I think that having reduced the list of Christmas presents I have to buy has taken a lot of pressure off. I'm still troubled by a few intrusive thoughts, but I don't know what I can do, as the doctor has told me he can't increase my medication much more. On a more mundane level, I may not be posting as regularly as I have been, as a lot of my posts are getting 'eaten' by Blogger, which is frustrating. You can now catch up with me at my new personal blog Just Me, as well as here.
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November 18, 2004
Ouch!
I know I've been overdoing things over the past week or so, and the aches and pains are beginning to catch up with me! My shoulders and upper arms and the middle of my back are particularly sore. My ankles aren't too good either. I turned both of then yesterday, and nearly fell flat on my face in the gutter the second time. I'm generally aching all over as well. Surprisingly my mood is pretty good - amazing for this time of year. Tummy is still dodgy, which is probably due in part to the antibiotics. Eczema is playing up again. I'm feeling very tired, but then, I have been doing a lot more physically demanding stuff than I would normally.
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November 19, 2004
Achey
I'm very achey after all the bending and standing I did earlier in the week. Tummy is ok as long as I keep taking the loperamide. Eczema is flaring up again. Feeling ok mood wise.
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November 20, 2004
Achey but ok
I had another muscular headache when I woke up, but it's not feeling as bad now. I'm pretty achey, but it has been a busy week. My tummy is ok if I keep taking the loperamide. The eczema isn't too bad today. Mood wise I'm still feeling pretty good.
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November 21, 2004
Lots of pain today
Major pain today. All over, not just my lower body. I didn't sleep well either. I'm still holding off taking extra painkillers. I don't like the wooziness that I sometimes get with them. I may have to give in today though. My tummy is ok, as long as I keep taking the loperamide. The eczema is bad again, but only on one hand. My throat seems to be better than it was yesterday. I'm just slightly wheezy. Very tired, but then, as I said, I'm not sleeping well. Mood wise I'm feeling ok still.
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November 22, 2004
Lovely lie-in!
I had a good lie-in, which didn't do a lot for the aches and pains, but certainly helped the tiredness! I'm in pain, but I can cope at the moment. My tummy is ok, as long as I take the loperamide. The eczema is still playing up on one hand, but it's not too itchy. I'm not convinced that my ordinary (not reading) glasses are right. I think I might have to go back to the opticians, having given them several weeks. I can manage without doing that this week though, as I've got to see the shoe man at the hospital on Wednesday afternoon, and the oral surgery unit doctor there on Thursday morning. Maybe I could get a bed for the night - ha, ha!
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November 23, 2004
Ouch!
More achey today, especially in my upper body - my right shoulder and my upper back are worse for some reason. Everything else is much the same, except that I'm more tired, despite a lie-in. Mood wise I'm pretty much ok.
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More pain
I'm feeling pretty lousy. In a lot of pain, all over. I'm trying not to take the extra pain pills until after tea, to avoid nausea. Tummy has been ok, and eczema isn't too bad. My mood is ok-ish, but the constant pain is getting me down a bit. I wish there was something I could do about it other than take strong painkillers. My theory is that pain is just a symptom, and we should be dealing with the cause of the pain.
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November 24, 2004
More pain again
I didn't sleep well because of the pain. My right shoulder was particularly bad. Maybe I should have taken more painkillers before bed, but I tend to think that if I can sleep without them I can manage without them. I'm very sore this morning. I'm not entirely sure whether it's my joints or my muscles that are giving me the most pain. Getting into the bath to have a shower was more difficult than it's been for ages. Everything else is much the same as yesterday. Mood is ok.
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New shoes soon!
Still in quite a lot of pain and very tired. The appointment to have my orthopaedic shoes fitted went well. The man was much more chatty and friendly today. Perhaps he was just having a bad day last time. The shoes were very comfortable and didn't look too bad, considering they're orthopaedic shoes. My joints seem to be hurting as much as my muscles today, and my back is aching too. I haven't taken extra painkillers so far, but I may have to later. My tummy is still ok, but I'm taking 4 loperamide a day at the moment. The eczema isn't too bad today. My mood has been pretty good.
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November 25, 2004
Not great today
I had another bad night, with my shoulder hurting. I'm generally stiff and achey today. I'm going to try to see my doctor tomorrow morning. I'm hopefully going to have a nap this afternoon, so maybe that will help. I went to see the doctor in the oral surgery unit this morning. There isn't really anything else they can do to help my dry mouth since the tablets didn't suit me, so they've given me an open appointment for a year.
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November 26, 2004
Better sleep
I slept better last night, but my shoulders are still really sore, along with several other bits of me, so I'm hoping to see my doctor this morning. Tummy isn't too happy but I'm still taking the loperamide. Eczema is much the same. Mood is ok.
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Seeing my doctor
The doctor's appointment was ok. He was helpful about the joint pains, increasing the amitriptyline. He said that I need an anti-inflammatory drug but I can't have it because I'm on lithium, and the lithium is more important. The finger that the middle joint is sticking on is 'trigger finger' apparently, and if it gets worse a cortisone injection should help.
I'm frustrated by his response to the neurological problems though. His speciality is neurology, although he's a GP. I told him that I keep staggering and he seemed to just ignore that, and he said that forgetting what things are called could be down to depression. I asked him if the neurological problems had any connection to the possible sarcoidosis. He said 'not with your lumbar puncture and scans'. I had most of those in 1998! Even my last scan was over a year ago, and I didn't get the 'sarcoidosis' until earlier this year. He was convinced it was that, and he seems to have changed his mind now the chest specialist has cast doubt.
I know things aren't right, but what can I do? Carry on staggering until I start falling over presumably. As I've said before, I couldn't fake a pale optic nerve, even if I was making the rest up, which I'm not. Trouble is, when you have a mental illness, people just don't take you seriously.
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Mood up, pain up, throw up?
Moodwise I'm feeling better than I was earlier, mainly due to an early Christmas present from my parents - a set top box that gives me 10 extra channels on my tv. Physically I'm feeling pretty lousy. Just about everything hurts, I feel nauseous and I think there's a headache hovering. I hope the increase of amitriptyline works, and cuts down the pain. It's not unbearable, like a migraine or something, but it's pretty bad. I feel like one big toothache! My tummy is ok, thank goodness, and the eczema seems to be clearing up a bit.
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November 27, 2004
Everything hurts
Where shall I start? All my joints and muscles ache, my tummy is playing up, the eczema has started itching again, and I have a headache. Other than that everything is wonderful! Mentally I'm feeling ok.
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So-so
I haven't felt great today, but the two paracetamol I took first thing have helped the headache which is just hovering. Tummy has been ok-ish today. Eczema hasn't been too bad. I got frustrated at the cashpoint when I had to press the buttons twice because I wasn't doing it hard enough. I also get embarassed trying to get my money out of my purse because my fingers don't move fast enough.
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November 28, 2004
Feeling grotty
Well, today I ache all over - a lot. I also have a headache, my mouth and throat are incredibly dry, my tummy is a bit unsettled and the eczema is itchy. Fun, fun, fun! Mentally I feel ok.
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November 29, 2004
*Cough, sniff*
I didn't sleep very well at all last night. I think I've probably got a cold rather than an allergic reaction, as the cough is worse and my throat is more sore. I've got a slight headache but I haven't taken anything for it yet. The eczema is worse on my left hand again. My tummy is ok as long as I keep taking the loperamide. I'm very achey, and my shoulders are particularly sore again. I'm not feeling too bad mentally.
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Still feeling yucky
I took one dihydrocodeine tablet this morning, and it hasn't had any effect at all. I'm still headachey, have a sore throat and the usual joint/muscle pain. It's a bugger really. Increasing the amitriptyline is the only other pain relief option the doctor had. He said that I need an anti-inflammatory drug, but I need lithium too, and I can't have both. I'm better mentally on lithium. I don't like taking the dihydrocodeine because I know they are addictive, and to be honest they don't always work. It depends on the kind of pain. I can't take any anti-inflammatory, even ibuprofen, for two reasons really, because I'm on lithium, and because I'm asthmatic. I know I shouldn't moan because there are lots of people worse off, but I have to vent somewhere. I feel pretty lousy today.
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Not a well girl
I feel rotten. Here's why:
Sore muscles and joints
Gnawing tummy ache
Headache
Wheezy breathing
Scratchy cough
Bunged-up nose
Giddiness
Mild nausea
Sore throat
Bleargh!
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November 30, 2004
Not too well
I'm still feeling pretty grotty. I woke up several times in the night, mostly because my right shoulder was giving me a lot of pain when I moved. I was also feeling hot, then cold, etc. This morning I'm still feeling a bit giddy/nauseous, the cough seems to have gone to my chest (great!), my muscles/joints are aching, the eczema is sore again, and I've got an on again/off again headache. Other than that I feel great - lol! On the positive side my tummy isn't too bad and the gnawing pain from yesterday has gone. Mentally I'm not feeling too bad.
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Chest getting worse
I'm still not feeling too good. My chest seems to be getting worse. I'll have to watch it because of my asthma, and I'm a bit prone to chest infections and bronchitis too. Last year I had the flu, a chest infection and a bad go with the asthma all at once. It was that that prompted me to give up smoking. I only smoked for 5 years, and had asthma and eczema long before I started smoking, but that's no excuse. Apart from that, my nose and ears are bunged up and I've got the usual muscle and joint pain. My right shoulder is still very sore, and keeping me awake despite the extra amitriptyline. I still feel giddy/nauseous on and off, generally tired, and a bit weak and feeble. My tummy is ok today, and the eczema isn't too bad. Mentally I'm not too bad either. Some intrusive thoughts, and some stress-related stuff, but not deeply depressed and certainly not hypomanic.
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