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January 09, 2005

I'm back!!!!!

If there's anyone out there reading this, I hope you had a good Christmas! Happy New Year! I'm sorry I've been away so long. There are lots of reasons, but anyway, I'm back now. The good news is that the chest specialist has decided that I don't have sarcoidosis! Woohoo! The rheumatologist has told me that I don't have active arthritis too. He is sending me for a bone scan because I'm not on HRT.

I should be getting my special shoes from the hospital this week. As for how I've been, well my memory is awful and I'm getting words muddled. I need to do some research on 'fibro fog'. I had been sleeping well up to about a week ago, but I'm back to the disturbed nights. I'm in a lot of pain for a lot of the time, unless I don't do anything, and I'm not falling into that trap. I'm getting most of the pain in my legs, feet and lower back, but some in my shoulders, arms and hands too. Pretty much all over really.
Mentally I've been sort of ok. I haven't been too depressed, but the OCD has been getting steadily worse. I haven't seen my doctor for a few weeks, but I need to see him soon. The corners of my mouth keep cracking (vitamin deficiency?), and I've been having tummy trouble despite being on loperamide and ranitidine. I think that's enough for now, but I'll be updating my blog daily in future.

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January 10, 2005

Mega pain

Today I have pain in places where I didn't know I had places! I haven't really walked that far, or done anything terribly energetic, but I've been in major pain since mid-afternoon. I even have a pain in my bottom! Literally the bit of my bottom that I sit on really aches. A bit like period pains, but it can't be anything gynaecological as back in 2001 when I was 36, I had a TAH (total abdominal hysterectomy) & BSO (bilateral salpingo-oopherectomy). I've got the ten inch scar to prove it - lol!
The rest of the pain is in the 'normal' places - just about everywhere from the top of my neck down. My left knee is particularly sore, but I knelt down on Saturday so I know why. It all feels a bit like a fibromyalgia flare, but I hope it holds off for a little while because I've got a day out planned tomorrow.

I think I'll probably have to take some strong painkillers later, but I'm holding off for a while to give my tea a chance to settle. I'm certainly not going to be doing anything very energetic. It's actually hurting sitting on my computer chair at the moment, so I think an early night might be a good idea. Either that or reclining in my recliner! I'm feeling better mentally today, so I suppose that's something!
Oh, and I nearly forgot, I saw the optician & he has lightened the tint on my glasses as apparently that could be making my distance vision worse. I had to leave my glasses with him for half an hour. I must have looked like a mole because I couldn't see anything unless I got really close to it! If that doesn't work I have to go back, and I've been told to talk to my doctor about my eyes too, as my health and medications might be contributing to these problems.

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January 11, 2005

The pain is worse today

I've been in major pain this afternoon. Even worse than yesterday, and my upper body is involved more. I can't understand this pain in my bottom. I really don't want to take more of the strong painkillers but I may have to. I wish they weren't addictive. I need to see my doctor soon and find out if there are any other options. I really am in mega pain again. It's bearable, but only just.

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January 12, 2005

Pain, pain, go away!

Major pain today, and I've only been up just over an hour. I'm getting so fed up with this. I know I could take pain pills, but my doctor warned me a while back that they are addictive, so I prefer to save them for the very worst times or the times when I'm with my kids or have to go somewhere important. I suppose I'm lucky (ha, ha) that my kids can barely remember me being well, so they take my health problems in their stride.
I wish there was a pain measure so that you could prove it to doctors etc. I'm sure some of them think that I have a low pain threshold, but since I had seven tattoos done in one day I doubt it somehow!
I should really have gone to see my doctor this morning, but I decided I'd rather have a lie-in. I'm getting fed up with all this pain.
I'm also feeling low about the fact that today is probably my last day in 'normal' shoes. I get my orthopaedic ones, and believe me, they aren't particularly attractive. I also need to get a shopping trolley to lean on, so we may be going to the mobility centre today. Could life get any more exciting?

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My new shoes

Amazing really, they can take photos of Mars, make designer babies, and mobile phones which are also cameras, but they can't make nice-looking orthopaedic shoes. My Papa (my Mum's Father) had to wear built up shoes, and to be perfectly honest, apart from the advent of velcro, orthopaedic shoes don't seem to have changed much. Wearing them is like wearing lumps of lead on my feet, and I'm also dragging my left foot. Hopefully that will be a temporary glitch. Apart from that I'm still in a lot of pain, more than earlier. I'm also tired and feeling down.

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January 13, 2005

So-so

I've decided not to go to the doctor's this week. It can all wait until next week. Fortunately I don't have to see him for repeat prescriptions, in fact I can drop my slip into the chemist's and pick the tablets up from there a few days later. I'm not looking forward to wearing the shoes again, but they aren't going to help unless I do wear them. I've got up early to allow myself extra time to do everything. I'm not feeling too bad physically this morning. Tummy is a bit dodgy, but it always is first thing. Not too much pain. My skin is much better since I started using the Neutrogena & Simple ranges. Mentally I'm feeling a bit down.

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Blah

I'm feeling very tired, achey and a bit blah. I'm off to bed in a little while. The pain isn't too awful, I'm just very tired and feeling yucky. Mentally I'm just feeling a bit drained.

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January 14, 2005

Tired and achey

Not much to report today. Tummy was a bit off this morning, but it's ok now. I'm feeling very, very tired. I'm also in a fair bit of pain. I'm finding the shoes heavy and difficult to walk in, but at least I'm walking 'normally' now. I've done an awful lot of walking this week. To be honest, I think I've overdone it, but Tuesday was fun, and worth it. I reckon I should have a quiet weekend, but we'll see how it goes! Mentally I'm feeling less grumpy, but a bit low at times.

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January 15, 2005

In pain

Tummy is quite upset today. Feeling very achey despite not doing much apart from two hours shopping. Feeling ok mentally. Not great but ok. OCD is bothering me. Three showers so far today. Lots of pain in back, legs, knees & feet.

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January 17, 2005

Achey & stuff

I'm feeling more achey today, especially in my hips and shoulders, as well as the more usual places. I was also feeling a bit low this morning. I'm ok though, things have been a lot worse. I'm just about to have a salad for tea, so I foresee a lot of time in the loo over the next couple of days! I do like salad though, so maybe it's worth it! The eczema has almost gone - yay!

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January 18, 2005

Tuesday update

I overdid it again today. I ache just about all over, and I'm really tired. My tummy is ok so far though. Mentally I've been ok today.

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January 19, 2005

Very achey

I'm very achey right now. I've overdone the walking, carrying etc. again. I'm very tired too. My tummy is behaving though, so that's something. Mentally I'm feeling ok-ish, not great but not awful either. I'm still having problems with my eyes. I got some large print books out of the library today.

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January 20, 2005

Blah

I'm not really feeling at my best today. I didn't sleep that well last night & I'm tired and achey. I feel like one big bruise. Even the duvet was making my shoulder hurt last night. My tummy isn't happy either. I'm not convinced that all the stomach/bowel problems can be put down to Irritable Bowel Syndrome, but I have to admit that I'm putting off seeing my doctor about it. Mentally I'm feeling ok but not great.

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Not one of my better days

Ugh - I haven't been a well girl today. A bad headache that started in my eyes and spread, and I've been feeling really sick too. I'm also very achey still, and my tummy played up a bit this morning.

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January 21, 2005

Good mentally but not so good physically

Not feeling too great physically. Tired, achey, and a bit icky (that's a technical term!) after feeling so sick yesterday. I've really been overdoing things recently. My Mum reckons that yesterday's headache and sickness was a bug that's been going around. I've been feeling ok mentally though.

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January 22, 2005

I've overdone things

I'm tired and achey from overdoing it. I'm not sleeping well, which is a bad sign with fibromyalgia. But I've been having a great time shopping and rearranging stuff & I'm feeling happy as well as tired!

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January 23, 2005

Restless night

Another restless night and I'm feeling tired and achey, and a bit icky too. I need to eat properly today. Mentally I'm feeling pretty good.

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Exhausted

I am soooooooo tired, and very achey too. I've really been overdoing things lately, and I need to pace myself better. I'm not sleeping well and not feeling very hungry these last few days. I'm sore to touch (like having an all-over bruise), and generally achey and with some neurological symptoms. Could be a FMS flare-up on the way. I hope it isn't.

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January 24, 2005

Feeling ok-ish but not great

I had another restless night, and I'm very achey. My left shoulder is particularly sore. My tummy is a bit dodgy this morning. I'm really tired too. Mentally I'm ok, but the OCD isn't any better. My eyes are still bothering me too. I need to go and see my doctor this week.

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Pleased with myself!

I'm very tired and achey, but pleased with myself. I've just had my first bath in two years! I don't think getting in and out did much for my sore muscles, but it was worth it! My tummy has settled down a bit.

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January 25, 2005

More tiredness and acheyness

More tired. More achey. Cold isn't helping acheyness. Tummy ok-ish. Not too depressed. OCD playing up, especially with intrusive thoughts.

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January 26, 2005

Sore eyes

It's sunny. My eyes hurt. I hope I'm not going to be back to square one with the tinted glasses. Otherwise, I'm tired and achey, despite a lie-in. My tummy is a bit unsettled. Bipolar-wise I'm feeling ok-ish. OCD is still bothering me.

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I finally saw a doctor...

I went to see the doctor this afternoon. Not my own doctor, a women doctor. I've seen her before but I wasn't terribly impressed. I went to see her about my eyes, tiredness, more pain and tummy trouble, oh and the main thing was the OCD. I'm going to be referred to the mental health team again about that. She also gave me some different extra painkillers which contain codeine so they might help my tummy troubles. Unfortunately they are also addictive, so they're not a long term answer. I guess it doesn't pay not to see your own doctor, but at least I should be getting some help with the OCD, as it is getting to me a bit right now. The intrusive thoughts are the worst thing.

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January 27, 2005

More tummy trouble

The new painkillers have made my stomach worse instead of better, and don't seem to have had much effect on the pain. I can't see the point of them really, as they are addictive, like the other painkillers, and not as effective. I'm tired and achey. I think I might have a nap this afternoon. I don't sleep during the day very often these days, but I think it might help today. Mentally I'm feeling much the same as yesterday.

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Tired and generally blah

I was so tired that I had a nap this afternoon. My tummy isn't happy, probably because I had cucumber and tomato as part of my lunch. The pain is about normal. The middle of my back feels odd again. I don't know why, because I haven't done much bending today. Mentally I'm feeling much the same. Given a choice I'd take the physical stuff, but I don't have a choice, do I?

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January 28, 2005

Not a happy bunny

I'm feeling grotty today. Very tired, stomach ache, back ache, intrusive thoughts from the OCD, eczema is playing up etc... Basically not one of my better days healthwise.

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January 29, 2005

Not at my best today

Tired, achey, feeling icky, tummy playing up, eczema is bad, feeling a bit low, having intrusive thoughts. Not my best day ever, but I'm keeping my sense of humour - ha, haha, hahaha.....

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January 30, 2005

On hiatus

I'm feeling blah, both mentally and physically, so I'm taking a break from blogging for a few days.

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January 31, 2005

Not a well girl

I've been feeling yucky all day, and have a pain around my left kidney. I think it's just muscular, but it hurts. I've got an appointment to see my doctor tomorrow morning. Everything else is much the same.

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