Swimming Through Treacle

Taking a break

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 01:04:10 -0800

On the off-chance that there is actually someone reading this, I've decided to have a break from blogging for a few days. I'm just not in the mood.

Pain Still Causing Sleep Problems

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 00:21:44 -0800

I slept for longer last night, but still woke up a couple of times because of the pain. I don't understand how the weight of the duvet can give me pain. Feeling ok-ish today. Tired, achey and a bit down, but what's new?

In a lot of pain

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 02:08:47 -0800

I'm in even more pain today, and feeling a bit sorry for myself. I slept better but kept waking up needing to go to the loo & in lots of pain. Otherwise things are better, apart from my tummy which is undecided, oh, and the fact that I don't have any extra painkillers that work.

Fibromyalgia flare up

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 05:09:31 -0800

I went out for a while to see if some fresh air and exercise would help, but I actually feel worse. Apart from pain just about all over there's a headache hovering and I just feel really yucky. I'm going to spend as much of the rest of the day as I can lying down. I think this could be a serious flare-up. I'm in so much pain.

Pain and stiffness

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 22:19:32 -0800

I fell asleep propped up in bed watching tv and woke up seven hours later! Which was good in terms of sleep, but bad in terms of pain and stiffness - ouch! Everything else is much the same. I'm hoping to get some extra rest today.

Bad night's sleep

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 09:31:07 -0800

Bad night's sleep, in lots of pain, feeling crappy.

Took pain medication, slept better

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 00:20:52 -0800

I slept a bit better last night, and clocked up quite a few hours sleep altogether, but the pain was, and is bad. I took one strong painkiller before going to sleep last night. I think I should have taken two. I've been up for a while this morning but I'm still sore and stiff. I'm debating the painkiller issue as I write. Otherwise, I'm still feeling better mentally, but not great. My lips are still sore, and the end of my tongue is now sore too. The eczema is the best it's been for ages. The funny thing is that I haven't used any hand cream for days - it's the aqueous cream I've been washing my hands with that has made the difference.

Not feeling too great

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 22:20:47 -0800

Ugh - I'm definitely not at my best this morning. At the moment I'm trying to decide whether to take some painkillers for a slight headache. I might need to take the strong ones later today if the muscle pain doesn't improve. I'm very achey, and feeling so sore that even the towel across my shoulders after my shower was hurting. I hope I'm not going into another flare up.
Mentally I'm definitely feeling better than I was. I'd hesitate to say normal. I've been up and down for so long I've forgotten what normal is, and living with this amount of pain isn't what I'd call normal either.
I had a thought about the sore lips. Maybe it's the new medication. I know that people on chemotherapy often get mouth ulcers, so perhaps it's the new meds making my lips sore. The timescale would be about right. I've tried everything I can think of now and they're still sore. Sometimes it's almost as if my saliva is burning them.

Tired and achey

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 00:53:50 -0800

I'm still feeling a bit better mentally, but I'm more tired and achey. I didn't sleep very well either. My lips are still sore and I think they're swollen. I hope the vaseline works as I really don't want to go to the doctor's this week. Tummy is ok (so far). Eczema is still much improved. OCD is definitely a bit better, but has a way to go yet. Depression is better but not gone.

Pooped!

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 07:47:40 -0800

I'm tired and very achey right now. More achey than I've been for a while actually. My lips are still sore too, so I can see me heading back to see my doctor soon about that. I'm going to try vaseline on them as I've tried several different brands of lip salve. After that I've run out of ideas. It's cutting down on what I can eat or drink too.

At last, some improvement!

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 00:34:23 -0800

I'm finally feeling (a bit) better mentally. I'm also feeling a bit worse physically, but I'd rather have it that way around. My tummy has been a bit dodgy over the last couple of days. I'm more achey than I was too, but the eczema is much better thank goodness. The lithium nausea was worse than usual last night, but that's something I just have to live with.

A bit better mentally? I hope so!

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 08:37:43 -0800

I think I might be finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Let's hope it's not the headlights of an approaching train! LOL! I'm feeling a bit brighter today, mentally at least. I'm still feeling pretty grotty physically, but at least there's some improvement in my mental health. I think having more company today has helped really, but then, sometimes when I'm depressed I just want to be on my own, so who knows. I'm feeling pretty achey today. I'm just off to have a hot shower, so hopefully that will help.

Feeling tired, achey and low

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 09:45:29 -0800

I'm not feeling great today, mentally or physically. I'm in more pain than for a while. My eyes are really struggling with the tv. I need to get my new glasses sorted this week.

Sore lips

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 04:31:42 -0800

Still very tired, more achey, and still down. Lips still sore too. That just about sums it up.

Some good news for a change!

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 06:47:00 -0800

Good news on the blood test results. They were all normal, except the cholesterol and lipids ones which were slightly raised. It was such a small amount that I don't even need to see the doctor about it. I'm relieved that the kidney and thyroid ones were normal as they haven't been tested for so long. One less thing to worry about.
Apart from that I'm still feeling very tired, achey, and quite low. I'll probably go and see my doctor next week, as my lips are still very sore and my tummy is still playing up, despite all the stuff I'm taking for it. The bigger dose of anti-depressant should be well into my system by then. Surely I should be hanging off the ceiling by now, on a big dose, with the amitryptiline and lithium as well?!