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August 27, 2004

Results from CT scan

Well I went to the oncologist on Wednesday this week and the results from the CT were inconclusive. They showed that there was no tumour involved but that some of the nodes are enlarged. I have been put back onto Watch & Wait. I go back in six weeks to have them reassessed. The comforting thing for me is that at least they didn't tell me I was being neurotic about having cancer!!!! Anyway I'll post again later. Too tired to do more now. I hope that whoever reads this has a good day!!!!!

Posted by Possum at 03:10 AM | Comments (0)

August 20, 2004

CT today

I had my CT today. I am feeling a little more anxious now than I have been. I guess having the CT is starting to make it all a little more real. I will find out on Wednesday if I will need more of anything. (Treatment,Tests.) Fingers crossed that I don't. It has only been 12 weeks since I was told I was in remission. Please let it be nothing.

Anyway I'll be back on Wednesday to update. Keep sending your healthy vibes my way

Posted by Possum at 03:40 AM | Comments (0)

August 17, 2004

After the doctors visit

Well I went to my local doctor yesterday and had him take a look at the lumps on the side of my neck. He asked me how I was feeling and I told him pretty well, just really tired all of the time and that I had the itches. The itches could be in my head though so I am not too stressed about them.

My doc then asked what I thought about the lumps and I told him that I was not to happy with them. He said that he wasn't either so I am now off to have another CT scan on Wednesday and them I go back to my onc on Wednesday next. I was supposed to see the onc on 13th of October so this is a little sooner than anticipated. So everyone out there who reads this, keep your fingers crossed and wish me luck. I would hate to only get three months remission out of this.

Posted by Possum at 06:12 PM | Comments (0)

August 16, 2004

This is me

Hi everyone. I just thought I would post a pic of me as no one has seen what I look like and I know that sometimes it would be nice to put a face to the words.
I am also off to the doc at 3:00pm tomorrow to have the bumps in my neck looked at so wish me luck and keep me in your thoughts

Sorry that it is not the best picture. I will try to get a better one soon.

Posted by Possum at 05:47 AM | Comments (0)

August 14, 2004

Another lump to worry about

I found a small lump at the base of the left side of my neck just over two weeks ago now. I was not at all worried about it for the first week or so but it has definitely grown and now it is to the point where it can be seen. It makes the left side of my neck look like it is an inch shorter that the right side. I also have another lump coming up directly above that. So now I have to say that I am definitely stressed.

I have made an appointment to see my local doctor on Tuesday and fingers crossed that it is nothing and I can just go on living.

I am so stressed out. I am definitely not getting a good feeling about this. There is no pain at all with the swelling but I am absolutely exhausted all of the time. Maybe it is all in my head. God I hope so!!!
Anyhow fingers crossed 'til Tuesday.

Posted by Possum at 04:30 AM | Comments (0)

August 08, 2004

Still waiting for the next appointment

I am still here. Waiting patiently for the next oncologist appointment. I have been very very tired lately. I am still trying to work full time but it is very difficult to get myself going. I think that I pushed myself way too hard in the first four weeks back at work and it has really set me back. I am just exhausted all of the time. I am sure this will get better with time I just need to take things more slowly.

On the health side of things I have been having fevers on and off for the last couple of weeks. I also have a couple more small bumps under my tongue. I think that these bumps are just scar tissue though.

What a life hey? Thinking that every little bump or lump is the cancer coming back!!! I'm not really that bad but sometimes it can get the better of you. I firmly believe that this is not going to kill me but it is certainly going to make my life more interesting. Personally I would settle for normal at the moment.

Reflecting on this experience so far though, I have to say that I really like me more as a person now than I did two years ago. I have had so many confronting situations present themselves to me in the last two years. I feel that they have all made me far more patient and accepting of other people's needs. I am also, however, far more likely to cry at the drop of a hat. Strange for someone who has always been so stoic and never shared emotions.

I definitely like the new me more!!!! Growing is what it is all about hey. Anyway I am off to poke and prod my lumps and bumps some more and try an convince my overactive imagination that they are perfectly normal!!!!

Posted by Possum at 04:38 AM | Comments (2)