July 3, 2008
Unfortunately A New Beginning
In a couple of weeks I'll see the 3rd anniversary of my cancer surgery. I should be real happy to be alive and functional, but that takes a back seat to starting a new round of chemotherapy. In a way, I'm no better off than I was 3 years ago. This new "recipe" has a new drug that I don't know the name of yet, and a variation of the 46 hour drug that makes me carry the infusion pump in that "damn" bag. Since I really was lucky last time when my body got used to the drugs, I am looking at the down side and figure this time I'm going to have problems, get sick, lose my hair and all the other bad things. The doctor was very friendly Wed., but brief for all that is going to happen. I did ask for another 2 weeks before starting which he agreed to with no hesitation. I need to gain some more weight. The appetite stimulant is working and I could eat all day, but I've only gained 6 lbs. I need to gain at least 4 more in the next 2 weeks. I can continue taking that even when the chemo starts, so hopefully that lack of appetite the drugs cause will be counteracted. I think if I can keep my weight up the drug effect will be lessened. I still get tired so easy. I have so much to get down outside and I get pooped real fast. It makes me mad and discouraged. Unfortunately, I get little help from anyone. I guess that's about all I can say right now. The chemo begins on July 22nd. Wish me luck and good health to all of you.