August 01, 2005

I doubt I have very many readers of this blog, but I like to keep it anyway. I do have another much more "in depth" blog located at http://www.mommyish.net/loser which I post at almost daily. Anyway, I like this blog too. :) Never can have too many..

Anyway, on to the news... Today I am offically under 300 pounds. 299.5 (or so my scale states) I reached one of my short term goals and am down 38.5 pounds. I'm getting closer. I have two more goals that are close by... 296 which is a "10 pound" goal and also 288 which is how much I weighed before we moved to New York... :) After that goal is 275, which is how much I weighed when I got pregnant with my daughter... 261 is my low weight after having my daughter.... 256 is a weight watchers low... 245 is how much I weighed when I got married and also a low pregnancy weight... from there my next goal is 225, my lowest adult weight... (also during this I have my 10 pound goals... so 296, 286, 276, 266, 256, 246, 236, 226, etc..) My ultimate goal is not a weight, it's a size, which for me is a size 12. I'm currently in a size 22/24.

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July 19, 2005

You know, I'm ashamed that I haven't written in so long! It's totally a bad thing. The good thing is that I've lost 28 pounds! :) I went down a dress size, I am able to wear a pair of pants I bought last fall, and tomorrow is another day 1 induction. :) I am now promising that from tomorrow I will be checking in at least once a week. :) So, wish me luck. I'm on my way. My goal is to lose another 30 pounds making 60 gone for the year. :)

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April 20, 2005

Well, here I am. I've done it. I'm one of those people that when I set my mind to do something, that's it. I do or die. After yesterday I've gotten into that mind pattern. I'm ready to do this. I'm excited. I've registered on the Atkins website so I keep a food journal on there, it helps me stay on track. I've also gotten some great recipies!

I'm excited people! This is going to be great!

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April 19, 2005

I hate it. You can feel it coming on like a dark cloud in one of those goofy cartoon drawings. You look over your head just a moment too late... and then that's it.. it's raining, and all you can do is just stand there.

I'm not sure what has put me into this depression. Perhaps it's the feeling of not being able to ever be good enough. Myabe it's because I suck as a homemaker. Maybe it's because I weigh 300+ pounds. Maybe it's just a chemical imbalance.

I know we all have those days. I guess it's "one of those days" for me. I need to start taking up responsibility in how I feel and WHY I feel the way I do. No one forced me up to 300+ pounds. No one made me eat all that food. No one MADE me depressed. I let myself become this way. At least I realize that. I suppose REALIZING it is the first step to doing something about it.

I'm in this weird place. I have a beautiful home that is only a few houses away from my parents. My parents are huge on all natural blah blah blah. They want me to do everything they tell me to do. Even now, as a married woman. I want their support, but at the same time I know they won't support me in my method of Weight Loss. It's so frustrating! This is what put me in depression last time. I yearn for support from my family, I know I can't get it, then I feel worthless because I can't be good enough. I know this is all in my mind. It's not my family, it's me. I'm ALLOWING them to influence me more than they realize. WELL, SCREW IT!

I'm my own freaking person. I decide how to live my life. I decide what I want to do and when. I decide how I want to lose weight. I choose what is right for me. This is MY LIFE, this is MY TIME... I'm done with it all. It's time for ME!

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April 07, 2005

Sorry I haven't posted in a while! My laptop was sent of to HP because the power cable wouldn't stay in it's port. They did fix it, but by the time I got it back I decided to start using my old computer and let my husband pretty much HAVE my laptop. Either way, that is my reasons for not being online!

I will admit that I am not activily dieting, though I am watching my weight. I am staying at 325 for the past few weeks. I'm not sure my reasons for not dieting... I just haven't had the energy. Stupid excuse, I know... it's just been so busy as of late. I'm still trying to get my home in order. At present my home looks like a Federal Disaster Area.

The one thing I am going to try to do is start exercising daily. I'm going to get the Health Rider from my parents (I used to exercise on it when I initially lost a lot of weight) and use that. Today I am feeling quite motivated to start hanging things up... perhaps finish off my daughers bedroom.

Anyway, I'm off. Wish me luck!

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