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May 20, 2005

Hell Week

Hello all, I want to say thank you to all who have found my entries helpful, and thank you for your kind words (hey Ann & Judy). Anyway, I have been through so much the last week. Where do I begin?

Well it all started when I went to my doctor to get released to go back to work. I have been out of work for about 5 1/2 months because of being ill. I work for a cable company in my local area customer service, and it is stressfull but I need the money. Since I have been sick I have been living off of short-term disability but that ran out. So I went to HR and she was so nasty and mean to me saying, " Thats a shock." She did not accept me back to work, and said that the head office would need to look at my file and she will let me know. I did however ask for a accomodation under the ADA! I wanted to be off the phone talking to customers and do back office work. Well they said no.

So since I needed money and have been on new meds and taking supplements I have been feeling better! I was released on 5/11/05 and to this date they have not returned me back to work. I was under an old accomodation working first shift, and being off 3-5 days a month for doctor appointments and flares. I have gotten 4 different answers as to why I can't come back under my old accomodation. They gave me a shit load of medical paperwork. I said that I have used all of my resources on my leave and I had no money. As you all know doctors now charge for filling out paperwork and faxing. My doctor won't even fill out forms unless I have an appointment. I have co-pays with each visit and I don't have "ANY" money. I don't even have gas money for my car or even bus fare to get to the doctor.

Times are really hard for me, but you know what! I have developed a very personal and special relationship with "GOD" and he has been my rock! So I have been proactive. I filed with the EEOC, I have an appointment with the HUMAN RIGHTS DIVISION and I have been on job interviews. I am in FIGHT MODE, I WILL NOT GIVE UP, THIS WILL NOT BEAT ME! I WILL BEAT IT! I WILL BE HAPPY AND SO WILL MY DAUGHTER!

Speaking of my daughter, I went to court for child support, and her father did not want to pay. He does not call her, or show any interest in her! But you know what? He was ordered to pay and she will be just fine! He has a wife and 3 other children but does nothing for Austyn. Anyway, I am so grateful to express myself to all that will listen and to this website is truly a blessing. Maybe I can be of some help to as many people as possible.

Peace, Love,and Happiness!

P.S Since I have been through hell with my employer and daughter's father, I have gotten sick again. This scared me! I am kind of glad this happened because I feel that things happen for a reason and it made me realize that any and everything is going to try to get me down and out, but I cannot let anyone or anything take my joy! I realize now that it is my joy, happiness, and love for "GOD" that cures me everyday, and the moment I give that away I will have "NOTHING". So stay encouraged!

Posted by Keeon Williams at 8:12 PM | Comments (3)

May 6, 2005

Pain Free!

Hello all. Sorry I have been away for so long. I have been really sick! I have been in and out of the hospital, doctor's office, new medications, etc. You all know the drill. But as of the past 2 days I have been almost "PAIN FREE" and I say that with much pride. As most of you all know to be able to wake up in the morning and not crawl to the bathroom is "HUGE". I don't know what is causing it. Ever since March up until this week (5/04/05) I have been in so much pain. I have been popping pain medication with no relief. I tried yoga, meditation, and bio-feedback ($50 a pop)-nothing.

Then I remembered I had some calcium & magnesium supplements. I started with 2 tablets a day and now I'm up to 4! Guess how long it took me to feel a difference? 1 day! Can you believe it? Now don't get me wrong. It is not a wonder pill I don't think. I have changed my diet a little. I only drink water, all day, nothing but water. With or without lemon. I also drink green tea sometimes. I am also on Gabitral, an anti-convulsive medication. It is supposed to help with my depression and anxiety! But lately I have been feeling really "weird" after I take it. I was only on for about 2 months. I was taking 8 mg in the morning and 12 at night. I tried to lower it but it still makes me feel angry! I will talk to my doctor about it. But as for the calcium & magmesium suppl ements, I think it is helping. My daughter can't understand why I am singing all day and jumping up and down. I feel so good. But I am also being careful! My body could be playing a dirty trick on me. But I really think it is the real thing.

Money is getting tight and I think I will have to go back to work! I can't wait for disability any longer! I have no money, and my rent is due! I have been living off of my short-term disability but that ran out ! But nothing at this point can get me down. NOT EVEN THOSE ON THIS SITE THAT THINK THAT THEY CAN JUDGE ME OR DISMISS ME LIKE I AM NOT HUMAN! I KNOW WHO I AM AND WHERE I AM GOING! DO YOU?????

So as I always say!
Peace, Love, and Happiness!

P.S. THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN NICE AND SUPPORTIVE OF ME. IT MEANS ALOT! THANK YOU!

Posted by Keeon Williams at 7:39 PM | Comments (2)