July 30, 2004
'Back Again'!
Summer has finally arrived in London! And so has my back pain. I have been incapacitated over the last few days, with my old back problem. Because I had the operation for Scoliosis and they took bone out to make holes for the wiring of the Harrington Rod and then took bone from my right hip to fill those holes!, I get bad, bad backaches. Where my spine leans to the right and has pushed my ribs out of their normal resting place, this then pushes my shoulder blade out of place too.
For the past few days, I have been unable to move my neck, had severe pain in my right shoulder, my arm has felt like 100 ton of weight on it! So I have been miserable, uncomfortable, and uncooperative. I have been popping ibuprofen like smarties and the pain just won't go away. Normally I can muster enough breath to expand my lungs so much that it shifts everything and then the pain goes away. No such luck this time. I think I have a lot of muck in my chest and I'm only able to open my lungs a little bit. I have epiodes like this every so often. It's like getting a bad form of sciatica. I don't know if I should sit down, stand up, lay down or just chop myself in half. It's like having an itch that you just ca'nt scratch!!
So whereas I should be out in 80 degree heat trying to get something of a tan, I am walking round like a bear with a sore head. I seem to have confused a few people over my last posting 'Final Thought'. A lot of people thought that was the end of my diary. I can exclusively reveal it's not!! I was quite pleased. I did a search on the internet and my blog came in second on search results on AOL/Google. I just did a search on my condition and there it popped up! I wonder if I could type in 'soul mate' and mine would show up in the results. I guess with feeling under the weather I have been feeling a bit retro lately. I'm having feelings of 'why haven't I got a girlfriend', 'what am I going to do about it'. I was quite happy being on my own, in my own space up until yesterday!! But then I sat and thought, you haven't dated for at least a couple of years and your 34 now, time is ticking away, you don't really want to be on your own forever!! I don't know about you but I must have profiles posted on a zillion dating sites on the internet. I thought It would be a good way of getting to know someone gradually and then when comfortable move on to meeting them in person, with all the I like this, I have this, out of the way. On some sites I have had maybe 45 emails a month and on others 1! The problem I find is that the people that reply are too old for my liking, are Mrs. Nigeria telling me she will split $25,000,000 with me if I help her move money, or I write to a couple and they are not a member so they can't read my reply! A couple of sites I have paid for trial membership, or a monthly plan, but guess what, when I'm paying to be able to read all emails and reply to them, I get no mail! As soon as my membership expires, the mail floods in!! I wonder why that is....hmmmm!!!
As a web designer, I have often thought about starting a dating website for people that have some kind of health problems and are a little uneasy about that and would like to meet like minded people, but only charge a once in a lifetime fee of say $5/$5. Trouble is I couldn't come up with a good enough name, and would it really be appreciated and used? What do YOU think? Is it a good idea? Answers on a postcard please!
Well that is all for today. My chair is not so good when my back hurts and it just aggrevates my back, so I will say bye for now, look out for the next post!
Posted by Lee on July 30, 2004 02:10 AM