December 8, 2007

Hi-it has been a long time, but there has been too much going on to take time to breathe let alone update.

I have myocarditis with the lupus so I have been spending too much time in the hospital and not enough time out :( I lost my job and things have been very depressing..............oh well, what can you do?

Posted by Lisa at 2:50 PM | Comments (0)

September 2, 2006

This time the long dry spell was not laziness on my part-it was a lack of internet access. But I am finally back on and happy to be that way.

The past several months have been incredibly stressful, hectic and traumatic. My parents have split up after 24 years of marriage. My step-father left my mother for a woman younger than me! That was a huge shock to our family and all of their friends as they both are regular church-goers and stable people. This has hurt my mother alot as well as the rest of my family. There are also suspicions of a drug addiction. I do not know-it could also be like a middle age crazy type of thing.

My husband and children are doing well. The kids went back to school August 14th and so far seem to be enjoying it quite a bit.

I have been working like a dog!! I am a manager for Family Dollar (a retail company) and I love my job but it is so hectic right now. And I now have an ulcer on my cornea of my left eye. I have been on medicated eye drops for a few days now ad I think they are finally starting to work!! This is good news since I was reading an article that said if they d not heal with the drops then they would have to do a cornea transplant operation. I have no idea how that works but it sounds scarym Other than that and the typical fevers about once or twice a week I have not been feeling too bad(knock on wood) and I am grateful for that.

Anyway, it is hard to see with my eye messed up but I did want to drop in and update in case anyone is still reading this :)

Posted by Lisa at 5:16 PM | Comments (2)

May 24, 2006

Some days it seems like I can sleep for 15 hours without waking up and others it is a struggle to stay asleep at all. This is my first day off in over eleven days and I was hoping to go to the mall and get some things done but all I have done is sleep and catch up on my email (not at the same time-LOL).

This new job (it is not really new anymore) has really taken a toll on me but I do not know what else to do. The money is great but the job is hard and very physically demanding. It seems like there is so much to do and I can not get it done and done right. They do not want to give me enough hours to run the store the way it should be run and that makes it very hard also.

We had a VP visit yesterday at the store and they said it was the best the store had looked since they could remember and that made me feel good at least they did notice all my hard work but at the same time, it was like talking to a brick wall to get them to understand we need more hours, not just my store but all of the stores the company owns. It is impossible to keep the store as neat and tidy as I would like plus get all the freight on the shelves and take care of customers and do the paperwork and the myraid of other responsibilites when I can not utilize my help in the best most efficent manner.

I try to remember what my doctor said-STRESS=PAIN, but my gosh-my husband has told me since day one, if I took this job he would take care of the house since I put in about 60 hours a week and he works 40, but that is not being done-he has Saturday and Sunday off every week yet today is my first day off in eleven days and I have had to cook dinner every night this week and last week and make sure the kids are doing their chores and doing all the follow through because he is still doing nothing. He gets off work and he is done for the night. I get off work and have to come home and continue working and I am fed UP!!

I think the biggest part of my problem right now is through friends I have heard in the past week about three people with lupus dying. I get scared especially when I am still running a fever so much and I am so swollen and sore everywhere. It just serves as a constant reminder that I am not the person I used to be and I will probably never be again.

My mother and my stepfather are getting divorced and that was a big surprise-they have been married for almost twenty-four years-he was having an affair. My mom is really struggling because of this and she has COPD and other health problems and I am worried about her and now I am so far away in Florida and I really think I need to go home and try to be there for her. My husband is going to throw a fit if I suggest going home. Part of the reason we moved here was because his mother was alone and I did feel like we should be here for her even though she has two other kids living in the area, but now I feel bad because my mother is alone. I wish I had a guardian angel who could tell me what to do...................then again I am sure we all do.

Posted by Lisa at 7:36 AM | Comments (2)