January 11, 2005
Terrible Tuesday
Today is a BAD day. A lot of trouble with cognitive functin-can not remember numbers, names or anything. Also alot of swollen joints today that are very painful. But the worst is the cognitive function. I fear losing my mind on days like this and I know it is incredibly rare in this day and age it still scares me and no one can guarantee me it won't happen. I hate feeling spacey and I hate the feeling of knowing I know something but can not find it even more.
It is not a good day at all, I feel very shaky inside and swollen outside, and just not right. I think I am getting ready to go through a bigger flare. I am not done with the flare that put me in the hospital but I feel another bigger one coming. I am running a temp again only this time it is 101.2 and my head hurts and I feel funny and my legs have knots all over them and yes I mean knots not sure what that is all about? Never heard of it before but they are there. Plus I slept even worse than usual last night and the rash on my face is worse, so all the symptoms point to getting ray to go into a flare when I am still under doctors care for a flare that has not went into remission. I am getting worried. I can not come to work like this every day yet at the same time I can not afford not to-I do not know what to do. I wish I had a guardian angel like Frenchie did in Grease. Grease is one of my favorite all time movies and I really need a guardian angel to come and help me figure out what to do. Anyone know where I can find a spare one?
Posted by Lisa on January 11, 2005 10:49 AM