January 13, 2005
Time for me to Whine
This last week has been one of the worst weeks since the diagnosis. In the past week we got flooded and had to evacuate, my car broke down, we are staying at my parents and it will be a week tommorow, and now i find out it will be another week at least, the guy who is setting out traielr said it can not be moved until tuesday because the ground should be frozen by then. This means one more week at my dads with the kids, dog and everyone else in such dissaray that it is not even funny. I do not get two minutes to myself ever and the kids aer fighting up a storm because they are bored to tears, my husband thinks he is on vacation which is not a surprise since he thinks that at home also and I can not take it! I am ready to jump off a bridge but knowing my luck as of late I would wind up paralyzed from the neck down and still alive. Then my mother wound up in the hospital tonite, it is literally just one thing on top of the other., I have to use my dads computer so I have not been able to listen to even a dharma discourse this whole time which has been my saving grace up until this point in my life. I AM GOING TO SCREAM! I want a beer-mind you I am not a heavy drinker at all but it has been so long since I have even had a beer that I know one would help me relax some as well as help me sleep. The dog has not had hardly any attention for this whole ime because he is in the basement and I can not take the steps to go down there and my job is miserable and I am just ready to die. Not that I am suicidal I am just losing my mind at this point!!
ANyway-I kept my word and posted my joke for the dy so I am going to close for tonite-and remember in the immortal words of my father-keep smiling :) whatelse are you going to do really?
Good night, and gentle hugs.
Posted by Lisa on January 13, 2005 06:11 PM