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February 25, 2006

new trauma therapy group....

I went to a new therapy group for trauama survivors today. It was......different. The only groups I've done before have been with Donna or while I was inpatient. Well, I've done lots of eating disorder groups and of course there are all the AA meetings I go to, but the only groups I've ever done involving the abuse have been with Donna or while I was at WIIT. It was weird to not have Donna there. I feel safe when I know she is there. And this group was run a little differently than the way Donna does it. Not that the way this group was run was bad, it's just not what I'm used to. I didn't say much. I just didn't feel comfortable enough to. I'm not overly thrilled about it, but I'm willing to go back a few more times before I make any decisions about it. I suppose it has potential if I give it a chance. I don't know. It's hard to find supprt out there for this stuff, at least something that is affordable and safe. This group is free and I know the people running it are safe because Donna knows them and I've been to this other event that is run by them every year - a survivor's art show.

So.....I'm just feeling a little off right now. I feel like I need safety and to me, that means Donna. I have to find something else right now that will help me feel safe. I feel like I want to do something artistic but I'm not sure what. Maybe I'll paint or look through my collage stuff. Or maybe I'll take a ride to the craft store even thought I have tons of stuff here and don't need to buy anything new. I need to do something. I know if I just sit here in front of the TV the fear and anxiety will increase.

Posted by Butterflyteam on February 25, 2006 2:12 PM

Posted by: Pilgrim at February 25, 2006 8:56 PM