When Drugs Don't Help

October 11, 2005

I haven't written here in quite some time.

I wish I could say that is because I have not been affected by my depression in the time that I have been away, but alas, it is not so.

My life isnt really bad.

But that's what sucks.

My life has NEVER been bad.

And yet, I can never fully get a grip on that elusive happiness.

It really frustrates me to see that happiness seems to only elude me.

Sure, I know that everyone has a bad day or two.

But other people bounce back from their bad days.

Mine just extend on and on.

I'm worried because I am definitely worse during the dark days of winter.

And winter is coming.

So I'm trying to set myself up a healthy pattern now that doesn't depend on the weather.

I will be writing more.

Maybe here, maybe not.

I've got the gym in my future.

I know it's going to take more than that.

But it's a start.