February 3, 2005
I just don't know.
I haven't written in a few days-- I feel like everything I write is trivial and small. I've been pretty confused and stressed out the past week. I just can't stop thinking about all these things and they're crowding my mind and my emotions and making me want to just end it. Don't worry, I won't...I don't have the guts...plus I would NEVER hurt my boyfriend like that. I just keep feeling depressed and letting everything get to me, rather than doing anything about it. It's terrible. Sometimes I just don't know what to do. I feel sort of trapped sometimes. Like, I'm in this routine and I'm never going to get out of it...and I'm just going to die without having done anything to validate myself as a person. I don't know...I'm just rambling...letting my fingers to the talking rather than anything else. Of course...sometimes I just think too much, so maybe this is a good thing. I don't know... Take care everybody. Especially you, Pilgrim. We all care about you!
Posted by fourrightchords on February 3, 2005 11:42 AM